I have come to realize that life has to be complicated for me,for it seems to be a distraction at points,from my daily ailments.
There is this intense anger felt inside,which I must admit,has gotten the better of me and my relationship with my family members.
I realize that my decisions have paved the way towards my current destination.
PTSD and Depression,along with chronic pain,for me,brings about anger but it doesn't simply end there.
I'm not about to make this a pity blog but I have to get this out to move forward.
When I say i've "been there and done that," i'm not bragging but simply stating i've been through more than my fair share of unfortunate situations.
For instance,i'm in pain right now and working through it while typing this.It actually feels like i'm in a boxing match with myself.The healthy part wants the best and the unhealthy,the worse.
Unfortunately for me,there's no on or off switch for what ails me,so i'm going to try something different.
This morning I used my phone's camera to take a few pictures.
One of them I even used to change my avatar.
Wow;there's actually more fight in this dog than i've given myself credit for.
Survivor Of The School Of Hard Knocks-Street Version
Updated 09-05-2012 10:13 AM by Phoenix (editing and responsibility variants)
I decided to delete my previous posting because I seemed to be going off on a completely different tangent.
I'm both thankful and grateful to have come out of the streets because(to tell you the truth) in retrospect,I should've never been there in the first place.
I entered a "world" that preys on the innocent;taking kindness for weakness and exploiting of another person's weak points is likened to ordering the soup of the day.
What I take away from all of the wolves in sheep's clothing, hustlers,dealers and backstabbers,is an experience that I will never forget.
Being raised in private school from elementary through high school(and was subjected to the college experience),one would've though that I'd have know better.
I could blame it on oh,so many things and what it boils down to is that I must take responsibility for my actions(even though I witnessed my brother being murdered-RIP).......................
I liken this to Alice entering Wonderland but i'm not here to explain all that i've experienced because this is my personal blog;I know what i've both been through and subjected to.
I've learned vast amounts of info,which I shall keep to myself for now.
It just leaves a lasting impression on a person;to have experienced both worlds and live to tell about it.
I reiterate an excerpt from one of Jack Nicholson's movie:"I'm Back!!!"..............
Even that didn't prepare me for what came next.............