I have come to realize that life has to be complicated for me,for it seems to be a distraction at points,from my daily ailments.
There is this intense anger felt inside,which I must admit,has gotten the better of me and my relationship with my family members.
I realize that my decisions have paved the way towards my current destination.
PTSD and Depression,along with chronic pain,for me,brings about anger but it doesn't simply end there.
I'm not about to make this a pity blog but I have to get this out to move forward.
When I say i've "been there and done that," i'm not bragging but simply stating i've been through more than my fair share of unfortunate situations.
For instance,i'm in pain right now and working through it while typing this.It actually feels like i'm in a boxing match with myself.The healthy part wants the best and the unhealthy,the worse.
Unfortunately for me,there's no on or off switch for what ails me,so i'm going to try something different.
This morning I used my phone's camera to take a few pictures.
One of them I even used to change my avatar.
Wow;there's actually more fight in this dog than i've given myself credit for.
There's This Emptiness Inside
Updated 11-18-2012 02:18 AM by Phoenix
This couldn't be further from the truth,yet I still try to put on a happy face.
It does leave me with a ton of anxiety to deal with though.
I don't know whether to embrace it or distance myself from its' existence.
It's sort of tricky,like a catch-22 scenario.
I have to release myself from this feeling sometime soon.......
I don't like where I am now so I have to make the necessary allowances for myself.
I am in need of a plan of action,before things get totally out of control.