I have come to realize that life has to be complicated for me,for it seems to be a distraction at points,from my daily ailments.
There is this intense anger felt inside,which I must admit,has gotten the better of me and my relationship with my family members.
I realize that my decisions have paved the way towards my current destination.
PTSD and Depression,along with chronic pain,for me,brings about anger but it doesn't simply end there.
I'm not about to make this a pity blog but I have to get this out to move forward.
When I say i've "been there and done that," i'm not bragging but simply stating i've been through more than my fair share of unfortunate situations.
For instance,i'm in pain right now and working through it while typing this.It actually feels like i'm in a boxing match with myself.The healthy part wants the best and the unhealthy,the worse.
Unfortunately for me,there's no on or off switch for what ails me,so i'm going to try something different.
This morning I used my phone's camera to take a few pictures.
One of them I even used to change my avatar.
Wow;there's actually more fight in this dog than i've given myself credit for.
Going To Miss My Therapist
There were good times and not so good.
Through it all,I learned a lot about myself.
I look back at therapy as a whole;the places i've been and the things I had to endure.
I'm a better person for it.
For the first time in years,I am beginning to see light,not yet knowing how far away I am from the end of my tunnel but that's alright for me,for now.
Things are beginning to happen for me,in ways that i've never envisioned and that's alright also.
When I finally reach that "point" i'll know it,as i'm not quite there yet.
Whatever's in store for me down the road,i'll approach everything with humility and gratitude.