I have come to realize that life has to be complicated for me,for it seems to be a distraction at points,from my daily ailments.
There is this intense anger felt inside,which I must admit,has gotten the better of me and my relationship with my family members.
I realize that my decisions have paved the way towards my current destination.
PTSD and Depression,along with chronic pain,for me,brings about anger but it doesn't simply end there.
I'm not about to make this a pity blog but I have to get this out to move forward.
When I say i've "been there and done that," i'm not bragging but simply stating i've been through more than my fair share of unfortunate situations.
For instance,i'm in pain right now and working through it while typing this.It actually feels like i'm in a boxing match with myself.The healthy part wants the best and the unhealthy,the worse.
Unfortunately for me,there's no on or off switch for what ails me,so i'm going to try something different.
This morning I used my phone's camera to take a few pictures.
One of them I even used to change my avatar.
Wow;there's actually more fight in this dog than i've given myself credit for.
Seven shades of miserable
I will say it's not the easiest thing I had to do but far from the harshest i've experienced.
This is where my faith comes in.
I truly believe that a power greater than myself can return my body to "sanity" if you will.
I try to put all my life's struggles in their proper perspectives and at this point can only surmise that nothing's difficult;everything's a challenge.
Today I accept that challenge and will honor Thy Father with victory.
I'm truly praying for an utter and complete victory and am fully prepared to put in the necessary work to put a positive spin on it all.
One wouldn't think i'd be but i'm smiling now;simply knowing that i'm ahead of the game because i'm both determined and committed to the cause at hand.
Pain be darned.