I have come to realize that life has to be complicated for me,for it seems to be a distraction at points,from my daily ailments.
There is this intense anger felt inside,which I must admit,has gotten the better of me and my relationship with my family members.
I realize that my decisions have paved the way towards my current destination.
PTSD and Depression,along with chronic pain,for me,brings about anger but it doesn't simply end there.
I'm not about to make this a pity blog but I have to get this out to move forward.
When I say i've "been there and done that," i'm not bragging but simply stating i've been through more than my fair share of unfortunate situations.
For instance,i'm in pain right now and working through it while typing this.It actually feels like i'm in a boxing match with myself.The healthy part wants the best and the unhealthy,the worse.
Unfortunately for me,there's no on or off switch for what ails me,so i'm going to try something different.
This morning I used my phone's camera to take a few pictures.
One of them I even used to change my avatar.
Wow;there's actually more fight in this dog than i've given myself credit for.
Seven shades of miserable part II
Still feeling a bit nauseous every now and then but I have to expect that,for not even Rome was built in one day.
I must admit that the tendency to sleep throughout various points of the day is lessening(thank goodness).
There's an upside to all of this,which will eventually reveal itself.
No matter what happens from this point onward,i'd like to say that i'm the epitome of optimism but i'd just be fooling myself.
I need to practice using rigorous honesty,as a means of re-building that self-confidence of mines.
My body at this point feels,well,................just as it was meant to,for now.
Going through this does make me appreciate life more and for that i'm truly grateful.