I have come to realize that life has to be complicated for me,for it seems to be a distraction at points,from my daily ailments.
There is this intense anger felt inside,which I must admit,has gotten the better of me and my relationship with my family members.
I realize that my decisions have paved the way towards my current destination.
PTSD and Depression,along with chronic pain,for me,brings about anger but it doesn't simply end there.
I'm not about to make this a pity blog but I have to get this out to move forward.
When I say i've "been there and done that," i'm not bragging but simply stating i've been through more than my fair share of unfortunate situations.
For instance,i'm in pain right now and working through it while typing this.It actually feels like i'm in a boxing match with myself.The healthy part wants the best and the unhealthy,the worse.
Unfortunately for me,there's no on or off switch for what ails me,so i'm going to try something different.
This morning I used my phone's camera to take a few pictures.
One of them I even used to change my avatar.
Wow;there's actually more fight in this dog than i've given myself credit for.
A Revelation(of sorts)
I've finally found something that makes sense to me and not one of my family members is behind me in my endeavor.
I'm told i'll lose money and am tired of the constant:"be careful" along with offering me their own advice.
What I need to do,for me,is to venture out on my own and do what I feel comfortable enough doing.
Nothing ventured,nothing gained.
There's an underside to this also.....most of my family members think that i'm too smart for my own good and would love to see me fall flat on my face.
I'm guided by faith on this particular project and with God on my side,does it really matter who's against me?
I already consider myself a success because I had the courage to do it my way,with no regrets........
Posted 03-28-2013 at 01:04 AM by BB07
Updated 03-30-2013 at 05:03 AM by Administrator
Posted 03-31-2013 at 07:53 AM by Phoenix
Updated 03-31-2013 at 08:08 AM by Phoenix