I've been in this "funk" if you will,for over 7 years now.
I have come to realize that life has to be complicated for me,for it seems to be a distraction at points,from my daily ailments.
There is this intense anger felt inside,which I must admit,has gotten the better of me and my relationship with my family members.
I realize that my decisions have paved the way towards my current destination.
PTSD and Depression,along with chronic pain,for me,brings about anger but it doesn't simply end there.
I'm not about to make this a pity blog but I have to get this out to move forward.
When I say i've "been there and done that," i'm not bragging but simply stating i've been through more than my fair share of unfortunate situations.
For instance, i'm in pain right now and working through it while typing this.It actually feels like i'm in a boxing match with myself.The healthy part wants the best and the unhealthy, the worse.
Unfortunately for me,there's no on or off switch for what ails me,so i'm going to try something different.
This morning I used my phone's camera to take a few pictures.
One of them I even used to change my avatar.
Wow; there's actually more fight in this dog than i've given myself credit for.
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Posted 12-17-2012 02:34 AM by Phoenix
Updated 12-17-2012 09:46 PM by Phoenix
I glanced over part IV and realize that I just let my mind run,which is ok.It's a testament to how I was feeling at the time.
Yesterday I attended mass and once service had ended,as the parishioners were leaving,I did something.I proceeded to make the sign of the cross and went up to the altar.Atop,there was a cross with Jesus' image adorned.I proceeded to touch the wounded areas of the image and then my specific points of pain.Now it wasn't the first and by no means the last time I will...
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Posted 12-06-2012 09:40 AM by Phoenix
Updated 12-08-2012 01:51 AM by Phoenix
As my body adjusts to all of these changes,I have come to realize a few things about myself.For one,i'm out of shape.Tried a little stretching and minor exercises.It's confirmed;i'm nowhere near fit(dare I use the term).Guess i'll have to chalk it up to my sedentary lifestyle.
Still feeling a bit nauseous every now and then but I have to expect that,for not even Rome was built in one day.
I must admit that the tendency to sleep throughout various points of the day is lessening(thank...
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Posted 11-28-2012 09:13 AM by Phoenix
Updated 11-28-2012 12:33 PM by Phoenix
I'm currently lowering my dosages of pain medications because I truly need to see if my body can go without them,as I fully understand that the body can naturally build tolerance toward certain legally controlled substances(motor vehicle accident-2005).
I will say it's not the easiest thing I had to do but far from the harshest i've experienced.
This is where my faith comes in.
I truly believe that a power greater than myself can return my body to "sanity" if you will....
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