http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/rdbomb94/ Health related message boards offering discussions of numerous health topics including allergies, cancer, diabetes, heart disease, exercise, attention deficit disorder, diet, and nutrition. en Tue, 21 May 2013 11:31:11 GMT vBulletin 1 http://www.healthboards.com/boards/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/rdbomb94/ http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/rdbomb94/3160-trying-understanding.html Thu, 11 Oct 2012 16:27:24 GMT Hi-Today is not a good day...I'm sad,hurt,angry. Let me give you some background info...I have been married to my 2nd husband for years. We have teenagers. we do not have any children together,however we have always taken to each child as if they were our own since neither parent was in their lives. My ex-husband went to prison and his ex-wife lost her parental rights about the same time for neglect and abuse.

Now...I didn't take my kids to see their father as much as I should have when they were growing up. It was a mistake on part,because at the end of the day he did love his kids and i kept them from him. He was released about a month ago and my daughter went to see him first because she kept in contact with him the most thru phone calls and letters. Last weekend I finally got my son to agree to go (it would have been easier to pull out my teeth). My son really doesn't know him and could care less. He's also very close to my husband and I think he was concerned about hurting his feelings. However the visit went well.
Now on to my step son...we've had issues with him lying and other problems. It seems everytime I get close to him he pulls away,or does something to push me away. He has tried to play me against his dad before but that ended quickly. For the most part he's a good kid,you just can't believe a thing he says. As a result it took me awhile to warm up to him but I tried over and over again. We finally got to a place,I thought where if there was an issue he would come to me. With my daughter and my son when they got closer to turning 18 they starting testing limits and now he is too.

What happened is this: I told him to his chores, he fell asleep. I told him again 4hrs later. The next day I asked and he still had not done it. So I yelled at him. He got an attitude and walked out,but finally did them. My husband came home and they took a walk. He then tells my husband that since this past weekend when I saw my ex husband I've changed (he's the only one saying this) and that everytime he starts to trust me i yell at him. I feel like he's trying to start trouble between me and my husband. My husband and I talked about it last night and he's fine because he wasn't sure what exactly he meant by that,but to him I'm still lil old me.

We're supposed to talk more tonight,but I am just so angry!!! I mean this is my marriage and I don't need any trust issues. To clarify there are no feelings for my ex,zero it's a dead issue. It died when when he went and broke the law.
My thing is this...if you don't trust me after 5 years,forget it you're not going to. I might as well just throw in the towel. My other thing,what game is this kid trying to play. Does he think his father is going to leave me? Is he mad because I didn't take him with us? My son didn't want anyone going but me. I only brought my daughter because I knew she could keep it getting awkward. I've tried with him I really have but this is too much. I just don't know what to do...oh and I woke up with the world's biggest migrane ever!! ]]> Rdbomb94 http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/rdbomb94/3160-trying-understanding.html http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/rdbomb94/3159-new-doctor.html Thu, 11 Oct 2012 15:19:40 GMT I wish I could start this off by saying everything is great...but it's not. I had to find a new doctor to treat my depression because my last doctor lied to me,in my face. He told me my insurance company called him so I turned around anf called them and they show no record of calling him nor can they because of privacy laws. So why lie? I told you upfront in writing and verbally what medications I was on. So this new doctor has changed me from Effexor xr 300mg to Viibryd 40mg. So far the change seems to good. I've been a little down but I didn't have any of those crazy side effects people talk about when coming off Effexor. I'm also just getting to the 40mg in the sample pack so I still have to see if it's for me. One thing I do like is there isn't any weight gain with this,supposedly. As for my doctor,he's an older man and he's a jerk,but for some reason I trust him. I don't like him,but he seems to know what he's doing.
He doesn't like the fact I see a pain manangement doctor but like I said he's an older doctor. I'm also lucky he was willing to keep me on Adderall. I also take that for deprassion as well. I know you thinking what? But yes I also Adderall for depression. And it does work! I just hope the Viibryd works. Well that's all for now... ]]> Rdbomb94 http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/rdbomb94/3159-new-doctor.html http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/rdbomb94/2930-im-sad-today.html Fri, 18 May 2012 16:34:09 GMT ...tomorrow's my birthday and it just make me sad. My mom and my sister moved to Florida about 2 1/2 yrs ago and I am so close to both of them. I just wish they could be up here for it. Times are hard and my mom still hasn't found a job down there. I have my husband and my angels a daughter, & 2 sons. They will take me to dinner and give me gifts. But I guess that's all part of life. I suffer from depression and anxiety. I don't know why,I always have. My dad suffers from depression and my sister suffers from anxiety. My medicine keeps it under control,for the most part sometimes I still get sad. Sometimes I know why I'm crying and sometimes I don't. I just wanted to vent. Thanks Christina ]]> Rdbomb94 http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/rdbomb94/2930-im-sad-today.html http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/rdbomb94/2892-ah-place-vent.html Sat, 21 Apr 2012 22:15:21 GMT Hi all and thanks for taking the time to read this...let's see,what's wrong with me? Are you sure you have enough time? I suffer from depression and it's evil sibling anxiety,i have killer migranes,gerd,severe stomach issues and I am on pain meds for nerve/muscle pain in my left hand/wrist. And last but not least I am overweight but we'll talk about that later. Let's start with the depression/anxiety...I don't know why I am this way,I have no reason to be. I have a very loving,awesome, and funny family,I have great friends,a job I like most of the time,and I really try to surround myself with good people.(I've learned the hard way) For that condition I take effexor 300mg and topomax 150mg. It really has pulled me out of a slump,at one point I would only get out of bed to go to work then back to bed. It really was a life saver for me. As for the migranes,I was taking Imitrex but that wore out and we haven't found another one yet. I have been trying the maxolt and that does the edge off. The fact that I am allergic to Ibuprofen and propranolol makes it kinda hard to experiment. Now pain meds...I see my pain management doctor monthly for nerve/muscle pain in my left hand. (a little backround...when we moved,as I was unpacking a vase broke and I sliced the middle of my hand to just above my wrist and cut clean thru the main nerve). I'm taking the meds because the sugery was a failure. We are still tring to get the right dose and right now I'm on 60mg ms contin er and percs 10/325 3x a day as needed for bt. And now for the weight loss,a woman never tells but here I'm going to y'all not to point and laugh (just a joke). I'm on fastin it curbs your appetite. and it works! Somedays I have remind my self to eat! when I started I was 291 now I am 270 and that's after about 4 weeks. For those of you screaming "diet and exercise" while reading this,y'all need to realize when some people,like myself get to a certain size,we need help.

I think I've covered enough tonite if enough people look at this maybe I'll continue my journey-Chris ]]> Rdbomb94 http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/rdbomb94/2892-ah-place-vent.html