The pressure is back, it's a very heavy pressure that gives a feeling of compacting my insides into mush. It keeps me bound to a place that i only want to escape from, but I cannot move or speak, only see. I see the others around me running freely as if there were no worries to be heard of. But I am chained by this dark terrible pressure, so i can not do what i want, or say what i want i can only watch others be so lucky. They have it.... they have what i long for with an aching through my whole...