Posted 10-20-2010 at 02:28 AM by Searchin
No, the addict in your life can not be trusted. They have lied, cheated, stolen from you, abused you... An addict, you say, can not be trusted while they are still using. I know I would rather say anything, even be a failure to avoid that look on your face. The look I get when you know I am lying, avoiding. That look you get when you find out I am struggling. That look when I fall off the pedestal you had me on. I would rather look at this as a learning process; a work in progress. A process that leads to strength. Progress that leads me back to you. It's okay if you want to tell me that I have hurt you in the past and am hurting you now. You need not be afraid. I welcome your truth. Hearing how you feel may get through to some part of me and make me think of others instead of just me, me, me. My hope that the work I am doing in recovery will allow me to accept what you say. If you are accepting of me as I struggle I will learn that I can come to you... I can push aside my trust issues and fears. Understand that I really do want to rebuild trust. I would like you to know that I am doing the very best that I can. Know that regardless of my day-to-day battles that you are so important to me and I want to do better. I want what you want and that is recovery.
The child can heal. The adult can heal. The family can heal. The addict can heal.