Journal of Addiction: Number One

You have changed and not for the better! You can not even fully see the spectrum of it all. Do you have insight into just how uncontrollable it has really become? Keep on keepin' on until you drop. Your body is rotting and you bleed from orifices you didn't know you had. Yes, you will bleed in many ways.

And you will waste so much time...and life itself.

You grow angrier and more irrational as it goes. You are sullen. You got a glance of it, noticed a change and shrugged it off. Just blinked and then it was gone. People, friends that were will say that you are no longer recognizeable. And you give them, especially family that nothingness, that empty lost look that comes staring from eyes that no longer see. You just do not see.