I don't even know what to write. Yes, I am still here. I am still struggling with my addiction but I think I am about to bring it to a close. At least I hope so.

I gave someone some advice earlier and I really think it would be to my advantage to follow my own advice for a change.

I hope to write the next time that I am on at least Day 7 but there I go projecting instead of staying in the now.

So, was it good? A question often asked. What's good about it? Can any part of drugs be deemed good? Some would say yes, but only those who have not seen hell yet. Deeper and deeper and more maniacal it becomes. Poisoned thoughts and poisoned veins. The sicker it becomes the more you like it. So you fall in love for awhile and when the break up comes it's oh, so hard and twisted and ill. You've forgotten where you started and you know you just cannot forsee an end.
One day it knocked at your...