Lupus, Fibromyalgia, IBS, GERD, Osteopenia, Brain Stem Stroke, Stress, and Severe Reactive Hypoglycemia.
Surgeries: Hysterectomy, Right Oophorectomy, Incidental Appendectomy, Urethral Suspension, Benign Left Modified Mastectomy/ Lumpectomy.
As if that wasn't enough: Nine fractured ribs, Morton's Neuroma, Left- sided Hyperhydrosis, Left- sided Thermoception Dysfunction, and even hot flashes.
School, Driving, Cleanliness, and a Movie Reflection
My eldest is now certified to use his driver's permit after completing the required 6 hours of driver's training. He's been driving me to do various errands, usually the ones that involve getting something for him. He's cautious at this point, and open to a little criticism, so it hasn't been the typical harrowing experience yet. He has proven to have a good head on his shoulders for most things, so I hope that continues in his driving experiences.
Returned to the house to find it messier than when I left, but nothing that a few days of cleaning can't fix. I dare to think what it looked like before they cleaned it up, tho. It's kind of nice to get back into the swing of things. There's nothing better than some time away, to refresh your thoughts on your life at home. No matter how comfortable the bed was where you stayed at, their's nothing better than your own bed, your own shower, or your own "fill in the blank."
Saw the movie, "Eat, Pray, Love" this weekend. What I understood the movie to be about was the story of a woman struggling to find herself after separating and then divorcing her husband. Her journey led her to accept her body image as it was (after gaining a few by eating herself thru Italy), to find her balance and learn her spiritual side in India (thru meditation and letting go), and to learn what she wanted in love and how to not be afraid to trust. Now, that was my rendition, and others may get something completely different after watching it. My sister didn't like it all that well (but she slept through a lot of it). I have to admit, that the general public may not "get it." To myself and probably my mind- based stress reduction classmates it had a deeper meaning.
I did not read the book, although after watching the movie, I am curious about it. I can say, that it definitely wasn't an action- filled academy award- worthy film, but I could relate to the movie on many levels. I, too, am struggling with my role as a wife and mother and also being chronically ill. I work hard to have accomplishments of my own, so that my identity is not just "wife and mother." Because of illness, steroids, and other medications, my body has been through a lot. I have had to accept the body I must carry around with me and deal with comments made about it by others. And, I am still learning to let things go, and trusting God's plan for me. I enjoyed the part about Italy, since my family (both sides) has relatives there. I am struggling with the hypoglycemia diet I must eat during this severity in my illness, and watching the characters eat pasta, was a hard. It reminded me of what I can't eat, at a time when I'm trying to stay focused on what I can eat. I especially could relate to the meditation part. I am just now realizing how important it is to quiet your mind. Our pessimistic minds can be filled with so many terrible things, such as regret, missed opportunities, guilt, fear, despair, etc... that there is no room for the optimistic mind filled with good things, such as love, hope, and blessings. The bible has passages all over reflecting the "Let not your hearts be troubled" mentality. That peacefulness of mind is so important, and it is probably the most neglected.
Here's to getting thru the first day of school. Here's to a responsible son. Here's to a clean house or at least a not so messy one. Here's to movies that aren't cookie- cutter imitations of the last and give you cause to reflect. Here's to a day spent being content with our bodies, to a day of mindful eating, to a day of positive self- identity, and here's to a day, an hour, or even a moment spent with a mind filled with love, hope, and gratitude for our blessings.