Please help! Need a little reassurance
I have been to the doctor and GI recently and given a clean bill of health. For as long as I can remember, there have been times when I have had a bowel movement and had a little blood upon the first wipe. There is never any blood in the stool, not blood in the toilet bowl. The amount of blood upon the first and second wipe is minimal and it usually is gone by the time I am finished cleaning. Afterwards throughout the day I do get a little itching and right after my wiping it does burn. I am thinking hemmorroids or just some type of irritation. There is no blood directly in the anus as I have inserted the tiolet paper inside a little and no blood. I suffer from depression and have become a hypochondriac. I am afraid of something now even with a clean bill of health. When I do bleed as well the outside of my anus does get a little puffy. Sounds gross but that's the truth. Everybody tells me it happens to us all at times. We all will develop a hemmorroid some time in our lives. This has never bothered me. The blood is always minimal and always stops by the time I am finished. I am overreacting for sure, but I can't help it. My obsessive compulsion sets in and it becomes life threatening to me. I really am just looking for some soothing advice. I am forcing myself or should I say restraining myself from blowing this up and making it worse than it is. Like I said, this has been the norm for 20 years and never upon a check up with my physician or for any of the specialists I have seen has there been a red flag. Maybe it is because for once, I am in a happy state of mind and this just gives me something to worry over which I worry about something every day. My brother has the same thing as this, even worse. He has also been to see a specialist and he is also fine. Please just some words of advice. I need to change my way of thinking and get on with living my life. Thanks for reading this and sorry it is so long.