I am a 32 year old male who recently went to the doctor and GI and got a clean bill of health. I also suffer from severe depression and anxiety and have become a hypochondriac. Anything that seem a little abnormal to me is some kind of life threatening illness. I am tired of running to doctors and having them run tests to find nothing. The other day I was passing a blwoel movement. Upon the first wipe I noticed a little blood. Nothing in or on the stool and nothing in the bowl. Just upon the toilet paper. By the time I was finished, there was no blood at all. For as long as I can remember, I have had bleeding at times. Nothing severe, never darker than a normal red and it usually stops by the time I am finished cleaning. I also have burning right after the bleeding starts and throughout the day it will itch a little. I have been to the doctor many times, seen the GI twice, had a GI series, had a rectal exam and nothing. My stomach discomfort was caused by stress. I am thinking that the bleeding could be coming from a hemmoroid or from using one-ply toilet paper. I really do not want to make a mountain out of a mole hill and visit the doctor, only to have him put me thru the stress of more tests to find absolutely nothing. My therapist tells me to try and convince myself of my hypochondriatic condition and find out the real reason why I worry. The past weekend I have put myself thru hell, thinking the worst. I really do not want to run back to the doctor as he gets a little annoyed because I go to him for silly reasons. Could this be just a hemmoroid? Should I worry over a little blood? It doesn't even bleed everytime I go. Just occasionally and most of the time towards the end of my cleaning it will bleed. Anyone else experience this? Please tell me I am overreacting. I need a little bit of a reality check. I know no one on here is a doctor, but I trust people's opinions and advice. I hope someone tells me to just let it go, that I do not have cancer and to start living my life. Thanks for reading and hopefully responding.
I am the same as you mate but you are something else. It's quite obvious you have hemmorhoids yet you keep coming back to these boards and saying the same thing. What more do you want? You have been checked!! Your problems like me are with the mental anxiety. See a psychiatrist now like i am. Only then will you live your life again.
This is the tough part in my changing process. The ability to let things go. Deep down inside I am not scared of what it is, just it's hard to break the cycle of ridiculous behavior. I went to the doctor 3 weeks ago, had the blood then, didn't tell him, but he found nothing. Had the blood 10 years ago, they found nothing. The blood honestly never bothered me. I guess I needed something to worry about last week and this popped up at the first opportunity. I know what it is and am working on convincing myself. Also working on trying to change my habits and routine. It's a work in progress and sometimes I need a really good kick in the fanny as a reality check. Hope I didn't **** you off with my obsessive compulsions. I enjoy your responses as they are very straight and forward. I do need to live my life and enjoy my little girl. Bless each day that comes and thank God when it is thru. The first step in changing is always the most difficult and that is the willingness to change. Maybe it's time I gave up my will to God let me live the way He chooses. Thanks for the concern and hopefully with a little time, I learn to accept what is and live life to the fullest.
I had a lump of blood on the tissue yesterday after diarrhoea and felt distressed as the sight of blood is scary but I have live with it. I have been checked and either i stop life and die now or I take the doc's advice. The latter sounds better. It's about beating anxiety not the hemmorhoids.
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