Milesmom

Hello. I am new here, and honestly so glad to have found a place where I might actually get some advise from others who have gone through the same thing. Anyway, I had a baby in August and suffered a 4th degree laceration. They repaired it right away, but the surgery broke down and needed to be repaired again. I met with a urogynocologist who told me that the only way to get this fixed was to have a sphincteroplasty. I had to wait for 8 weeks and then in October had the surgery. I am now post op about four months and still having difficulty with bowel continence and may possibly have a fistula from the sphincteroplasty. I have no idea what I am doing. I try to do research on my own to come up with questions for my appointments to no avail. I feel like I am speaking english and the docs are speaking Italian. I catch enough to feel confident at the appointment, but then the doubt slips in when I get home. I honestly don't know if there are other ways to fix this problem, but I know that I really can't stand the gas passing vaginally, nor can I continue to shower after each BM. I mean I really can' t do that. I am a teacher, 8th grade, so really if I have to go I have to go home for the day. I am so embarrassed about all of this and I feel so alone! I just need a little support, and a little advise about where to go next. If any of you have advise, or even a few words of comfort, that would be wonderful! My husband tries, but he just doesn't get it. No one does.

Thanks,
Milesmom