Re: hemorrhoid surgery with rectocele
Sorry to hear you're having such trouble. I enjoyed your description of trying to clean oneself after a BM!
This condition is a nightmare, but yours sounds much more advanced than mine was. I had a few smaller piles that I had removed. I had a very positive experience with the surgery, although it was something I never want to have to repeat. I am not sure what factors play into recovery, but I imagine it gets harder later in life. I have read many horrible recovery stories on this board, but a few good ones too. I can't determine what makes some bad and others decent.
If you decide to go through with the surgery, please read TacomaGuys Recovery Guide he posted on this board. It is an excellent account of what happens and he offers great advice.
I hope you are trouble free very soon!