About six months ago I was DX with acid reflux. While that seems to be better under control, I go thru these periods of having my stomach be a bit out of wack. It will rumble a lot, and I will have diarrhea one day and be constipated the next. I also have a very bad habit of sitting on the toilet for very long periods of time (like an hour) waiting for something to happen, straining, etc. About 3 weeks ago I went thru another bout of this, and last Monday (7 days ago) I found what I believe to be a hemorrhoid. Its about the size of a raisin, on the outside right near the anal opening. Its uncomfortable, sometimes sore and sometimes not, a little bit of burning feeling, and not really itchy. There is no blood, but a few weeks ago I did see a small amount of blood after a bowel movement.
Upon finding this last Monday, I went over to the Urgent Care doctor because I had myself in a good panic over it. Of course the only doctor there is a very young male (I'm a 40 year old female). I was pretty humiliated, he examined it, stuck his finger up there to check for blood (none) and told me it was a hemorrhoid. Since then, I have started drinking lots of water, taking Benefiber several times per day, eating fruits and salads and chicken and brown rice. I have had a few bowel movements since then and they weren't horrible or very painful. I've also soaked in Epsom salt baths once per day and that does feel better. I also have put some witch hazel on it.
I saw my regular doctor on Friday and she confirmed I'm doing everything right and it should go away. She did not examine it.
I felt better for a few days and it felt like it had shrunk a little, but today it feels worse again. Not bigger, but sore, and a little bit burning. My stomach feels very gassy - could this be from the Benefiber? I also feel a slight pressure down there, like I kinda have to go, but not really.
I'm scared and humiliated about this entire thing. I bought some healing oils from Natural Healing Oils that I read about online, will start that today.
Can anyone tell me if this will go away, or will it be here forever? I've read some horror stories online and now I'm scared of needing surgery. I have no idea if its a thrombosis - how would I know that?
I work in an office and sit all day - I'm trying to get up as much as possible.
I'd appreciate any advice or thoughts. I'm really scared about this whole thing and just want it to go away.