Approximately 10 months ago, I awoke with a strange stiffness/tightness sensation in my head. Not at all present the night before, this newly developed pressure enveloped my entire head -- it was most prominent in the forehead, the sides and in the upper neck region. Accompanying the physical sensation was one of mental stupor. I felt vapid -- I could not concentrate, focus or rationalize clearly. At first, I associated the pressure and mental malaise with a common cold -- I felt as if I was comming down with something (my nose was running) and that I would recover quickly -- however the feeling has persisted. I have trouble thinking, speaking, and seeing straight ...I feel as if I am in the twighlight zone since I cannot comprehend my surroundings or interact with people. Anxiety attacks, memory loss, are frequent as is a tingling sensation which shifts from my head to face to my extremities. I was a heavy drug user (ecstasy and cocaine) in the past for approx. 2 years but I do not understand how drugs could provoke this literal overnight change....especially since the transformation did not immediately occur after a binge period (it occurred about a week later). I am at my wits end..I have seen about 10 doctors (allergists, general practitioners, and neurologists)and explained to them my situation. I have had an EEG,a CAT scan, and an MRI. They have found nothing. They continually allude to the idea that my problem is purely psychological and that it was not a stroke. However i beg to differ isnce my symptoms are reminiscent of those accompanying a stroke. I have been prescribed numerous forms of medication. The most recent ones have been Valproic acid and I am now on Nortripyline and something else. These drugs do virtually nothing. Does anyone know what my problem is or have any suggestions for medication??? I cannot go on living like this. I am acutely aware of my inability to function in reality and i cant do anything about it...please help .
PS. I am aware that I made a horrendous mistake by doing drugs in the past. I would appreciate it if you would refrain from chastising me..it only worsens the situation. I need some form of hope and guidance..
No chastening here. You are in need of some very real detoxification. You have basically altered your brain neurotransmitters and the results are what you are experiencing. I have done extensive research into the "legal" mind altering drugs, which I believe to be no better when it comes to significant brain damaged than the "illegal" ones. I did a quick search on Ecstasy and came up with a pretty good overview of what happens. Your symptoms show up. It is at http://globalundergroundnet.com/ecstasy.manifesto.html
I would be to your advantage to start checking into the use of antioxidants, like vitamins C and E and CoQ10, etc. Drug use is usually attendant with poor nutrition which can blow you out of the water in and of itself, making matters worse. Using both drugs as you have has seriously messed with the neurotransmitters in your brain, making "connections", crucial ones, highly jumbled and damaged. Go to *********** and type in Ecstacy and brain damage, Ecstacy. Possibly looking for a support group, (if there even is one out there), for those who have used such drugs and are trying to recover would be helpful. You are going to find the YOU are going to have to dig, and dig and dig somemore to find your way out of what the drugs have done to your mind. Your MDs are ignorant. Don't let that stop you. Possibly look into nutrional supplements to help your brain fight the damage. Just keep looking. One bit of information will lead to another. Beleive me, there are many, many people suffering similar problems from the legal antidepressants and psychotropics out there. Maybe visiting groups like that would be helpful. Will be praying. We learn by our mistakes...
You and I have some things in common. My brain has been damaged by the gradual buildup of chemicals from where I used to work. Some of the damage is permanent and some of it will get better (I Hope) as the chemicals and heavy metals work their way out of my system. It can take a while. Drugs are just certain types of chemicals and some can stay with you for a long time.
I suggest that you sit down and put together as detailed a description as possible of your drug history. (Both legal and otherwise)Try to map it out on a time line that shows how long and where intake overlapped. Then, ask your doctor to send your data to a clinical pharmacologist for a consultation. The clinical pharmacologist is a specialist on how drugs work and interact. They should be able to tell you which drugs did what and how they interact. That way, you should be able to determine if your problem is related to your history or if there is still something to look for. It will also point your doctor in the right direction as far as treatment is concerned.
I think you should be watching for one of these volunteer groups where they try out new medicines and other treatments related to your illness. You are more likely to make contact with the latest, greatest treatments that way as well as more open minded doctors.
You might also want to do some research on treatment in a hyperbaric chamber where patients are exposed to pressurized oxygen. They have been very successful with brain injuries.
Finally, see a competant Neuropsychologist who can evaluate you to identify your deficits and make recommendations toward your treatment. Good Luck