justagangsta

Hi,

I've been suffering from headaches daily, for the better part of three years. Until recently the pain was manageable, but now it has reduced me to a mere lump of meat. I used to read much, write much and did a lot of thinking. But the last four months the pain hasn't allowed me to do anything. I'm unable to attend classes, and my school has warned me that my high absense might get me kicked out. I'm scared to death. My dream has always been to become a good doctor, but now that dream is going down the drain preceeded by my grades. I used to be a straight A student, now I can't even finish the tests, or make my assignments on time. Simple tasks, that I was able to do before, have become totally incomprehensible.

Below is list of everything that may help you explain my headache. I hope someone can save me from this.

- Chronic Headaches, all over the head and face (mostly around nose). All the time.

- Difficult to fall asleep, takes hours.

- Polyuria. I need to go all the time. Even wake up at night, sometimes even three times a night.

- Severe Acne

- Difficult to remember things.

- Difficult to pay attention in class and conversasions generally. I sometimes find myself giving a response based solely on to the facials expressions and hand gestures of the person I'm speaking with. Even though I can hear them clearly and every single word is perfectly audible, I just can't seem to make a sentence out of them frequently.

- I've always been a fast talker, but over the years I've almost lost the ability to articulate properly, and I keep hearing "What was that?" tens of times a day. Even when I rehearse what I'm going to say two or three times in my mind, I just can't speak clearly. Exceptions are when I speak loudly to a group. I don't know why.

- I frequently misreads words. As a result the sentence doesn't make sense, and I'll reread it several times, and every time I misread that same exact word. I just continue, thinking that the author formulated himself poorly. I only became aware of this when I wanted to show a book to my sister, and when she read out loud I "corrected" her because I thought she had misread. When she insisted, I looked for the word and I was shocked. I was so sure. After that, whenever a sentence doesn't make sense even after reading several times. I take a little break, and try again. Usually I find a word that i had misread.

- I see huge halos around lights, often 10 to 15 times the diameter of the lights. Traffic lights are worst. My eyesight is -1.5.

- Head worsens when I run.

- I rarely feel hungry. Sometimes I'll feel a bit hungry, and all I can eat is a single piece of bread, which takes half an hour. Other times I'll feel really, really hungry, and I can eat a lot, for example I once ordered the following that McDonalds: Two Fishburgers, one cheesburger, two large fries and a 0.5L Coke. And I was still hungry. My appetite seems to jump from one extreme to another with ever coming near the middle.

- I'm underweight, with BMI of 17.5

- I'm 18.

- I feel sleepy and tired throughout the day. Doesn't matter if i sleep 4 hours of 16 hours. Or if I sleep at regular times. Nothing helps. I trying out ZenBev, but I haven't noticed any improvement.

- I often have suicide thoughts. I see myself in different scenarios over and over again. Inside I know I want to live, and that these are just chemicals talking, but it's getting harder and harder to cope with the pain.

- I do not take any medication. I was on a Tetracycline cure (100 pills) a month ago, and my headache worsened. (Perhaps that was nocebo because I'm extremly skeptical to pills due to my upbringing. I don't think I've consumed more than 1 gram of paracetamol divided over 4 occasions, in my whole life.)

- I've become very clumsy, I keep dropping things. My hands just "act out" sometimes, and I tell myself "I didn't do that."

My doctor says I'm depressed, so has sent me to psychologist. I know I'm depressed, but I do not think that depression is the cause, but a symptom.

When I was little, I used to get bullied a lot. I was a typical geek/nerd. Fights was a daily thing. Name calling. Getting picked last. You know the deal. But, where was the depression then? Why did I not have headaches back then when I could have put them to good use and avoid school?

But NOW, when I have a lot of friends, a great school where everyone respects me and the teachers like me, and my grades were great... NOW I get depressed. Now that I have absolutely no reason to be depressed!

I don't get it.

I've gotten MRI of Head, CT of Head, Urine and Bloodtests. Everything is normal. Is there something else I should test for?

Please ask for any information you might need.

Regards,

Justagangsta