I'm very scared right now...please help with any input - Cancer: Breast Message Board

LucyPearl · 04-22-2008, 10:56 AM

Hi. I'm 48 years old and have had my annual mammos yearly since I turned 40.They have all come back negative. There was a time about 6 years ago when my gyn thought he felt something in my left breast and immediately scheduled me for a diag ***** w/ultrasound. Thank God it turned out to be nothing. My last ***** was January 07 w/negative results. I have recently relocated to a different city about 3 months ago. Almost immediately I noticed a dull pain underneath my left armpit (maybe about a week or so after moving). Prior to then, nothing at all. I started checking my armpit...did not feel any lumps. Checked my breasts and not lumps either. It went away for a while and now has returned. I just had my annual ***** done last week. I don't know if my mind is playing tricks on me or not. Now I feel what I think is a soft lump (movable) under that same armpit and my breast hurts off and on...sometimes my right breast and armpit too but mostly in my left. My left breast also looks to be a little bit bigger now than my right...I don't know, maybe it was always that way and I'm just looking for anything
I told the breast tech this. I got a call this a.m. that they want to see copies of my previous *****. They requested that last week and I signed a release. They called again today (apparently they lost the contact number)

So now I'm just waiting. Obviously the radiologist must have seen something on my ***** that she/he is questioning and wants to compare it. Im so scared right now...so very scared. Both of my breasts have been feeling "full" lately. I do drink coffee and have been on a big chocolate binge in past 3 months since my move...guess it's stress...I just don't know. Can anyone out there offer any advice or input?

Thank you so much.

tmarie907 · 04-22-2008, 02:03 PM

Hi,

I know how scared you feel right now. But it really is good they are checking this close. It still could be nothing! I am 49. I have had annual mammograms since I turned 40. I have dense breast tissue and nothing ever showed up. I found a lump when I was 48 that did not show up on any mammogram or even an ultrasound. Please know it still could be nothing! I hope and pray it is, but you can still request a biopsy or even an MRI to be sure. I kept trying to talk myself out of what I was feeling...like you, maybe my mind was playing tricks on me. But, you know your body better than anyone. A mammogram doesnt always give us what we need to know. Take Care and I hope you keep us posted!

Terry

LucyPearl · 04-22-2008, 04:43 PM

Tmarie...

Thank you so much for your response and encouragement! I just feel so helpless...just don't know what to do except pray. That's really enough and it certainly is better than worrying (just wish I could hit the off button on that!)

Anyway, thanks so much again and I will keep you posted as soon as I know something...the waiting is tough...but I'm sure everyone here already knows that...thanks again.

Lucy

tmarie907 · 04-23-2008, 07:26 AM

Hi Lucy,

Praying is a good thing.....a very good thing. But I also have another thing I do as my mind likes to constantly wander to the "what ifs"......I tell myself "NOT HELPFUL"....and focus on wonderful people in my life. Keep posting here....and take care

Terry

allic52 · 04-24-2008, 06:02 AM

Hi Lucy,
Fear is normal, but prayer can overcome that fear. Pray and I will pray for you too.

I have been through the waiting and am now waiting again to have my second op and reconstruction. Have prayed throughout and have found solace and great strength in that.

God bless

allic52