I speak for all who read your post when I say, you will be in my prayers.
Your post was for sure, an honest, open, hard to post.
I'm simply replying to share my beliefs.
I believe your mind does help control your body.
Stress depresses the immune system.
From my understanding you can have certain types of HPV's for years,,,without any complications. Until your body has a depressed immune system, then,,,,,smack!
My personal two cents worth, try not to research "cervical cancer". Instead consider researching diet. Day spas, relaxing outings, cruises, ect. It's amazing the results of a positive outlook.
I know it's hard.
We are here for you. Keep us posted, lean on us when need be.
Personaly, I would wait for a hyst. from what you've typed, and would do my dang best to start a new outlook and try to "fix" this, in a different way first.
Diet, outlook, and stress. within 3-4 weeks,,,,,it's amazing what the mind can do for a body.
I'm no doctor. They know what's best for you.
(I'm native,,, I belive in "different healing". )
I believe in strenght (you have LOTS
You go girl
Build your immune system up,,,,,,CLEAR PAP results in 2.5weeks