Hi Marie....
I know what you are going through...so do many other women on this board, so you are not alone.
I just went in to the doctor Monday for my 3rd follow up pap (and an unexpected ECC!) after my surgery last year for CIS. Doctor says if they call, then there is something abnormal going on....if I get a letter, I'm fine. So, everytime the phone rings, I freeze...not wanting to look at the caller ID is pretty silly, I know, but I can't help it.
I guess my best advice is just to try to keep busy with things. Hang out with family, friends, or do something you really love to do. I've been exercising more and more and that seems to help with the anxiety and helps me get rid of the calories I've been eating while I'm stressing!
Deep breathing always seems to help...especially when I let my mind start to get the best of me....
But really, the waiting is the worse part...getting the news that everything is okay is awesome...
Take it one day at a time...sometimes one hour at a time...(and for some of us, one minute at a time!)
Take care and God bless...
Tori
