:blushing: Thank you Mommyandwifey!
This whole adventure (since January) has felt so weird. It is kind of like I'm not in my own body, but watching everything going on. I get sad, frustrated, and scared; but I don't stay with any of them very long. I take that back, I was in a pretty bad "funk" from January to mid March.
After I got the adenocarcinoma in situ (CINIII/Stage 0) diagnosis in mid/late March I just KNEW it was going to be cancer. I also *knew* it was going to be a stage 1 diagnosis. I've read and read and read between the adenocarcinoma in situ diagnosis and today. I've learned a LOT. I've also spent a lot of time praying.
Before I went in for the colposcopy and ECC I prayed. I prayed the doctor have clear eyes, sure hands and get everything she needed to get. That is exactly what happened. I believe that God doesn't promise calm seas, but he does promise to calm the sailor in the storm.
We don't always get what we expect.
I believe I am fortunate to have my cancer found so early. I believe it is my responsibility to share my story. It scares me when I read about women whose doctors have said abnormal pap and those women go for years before having anything more than a pap and/or colposcopy. I keep thinking that could have been me (kind of different circumstances, but close enough). My oncologist told me, last week, that if my GP hadn't done the HPV test and the gynecologist hadn't done the ECC, then in ONE YEAR I would be symptomatic (bleeding) and chalking it up to my fibroid and/or menopause. And I guarantee, she's right. I wouldn't have mentioned it to my doctor until my next visit the NEXT year.
I believe sometimes we are given lessons in our lives. Then lessons are for us, but there is an additional lesson to share it with others. So that is what I am doing.
Mommyandwifey, I was so surprised for the call out. It was a very bright spot in my day! Thank you!