Best of wishes go out to you. I am not familiar with cancer personally. I started having abnormal paps in June of 07 so I'm on the 6 month "watch and wait" program. But, I'm interested in your story. As I understand you, there have been abnormal paps in the past. Did the Dr's explain the "abnormalities"...were they CIN I, CINII etc? Have you ever has a colposcopy and finally how often were they seeing you to follow up on the abnormalities?
In an effort to be as proactive as possible with my care, I'm always curious to learn more when I hear stories where women were seen as suggested by the Dr then they are suddenly faced with this.
Again, my very best to you. I hope you find as much support on this board as the rest of us do. Take care.