Re: Questions about borderline ovarian cancer
First of all, congratulations on being cancer (and precancer) free! That is a wonderful thing to be.
Everyone is different and different gynecological cancers are different. Each doctor is different in his/her approach to oncological care. So many things affect a woman's "outcome."
I think the way you are feeling is perfectly normal. It would be nice, once we are given the cancer-free lable to wish the whole cancer-thing to disappear. The truth is that recurrance can occur. That is the sad, depressing, and maddening truth.
I can't tell you how to feel. I would like to share how *I* feel though.
My cancer was found VERY early and only because 2 doctors did one more test than they normally did. For that reason, I was diagnosed with adenocarcinoma Ia1 (cervical). My gyn/onc said that within 1 year I'd by symptomatic, but chalking it up to menopause. I might, or might not, at that point even mention the breakthrough bleeding and/or bleeding post-coital to my doctor. By then, my cancer would be stage 2+ and I'd require a radical hyst with chemo and/or radiation. Instead, I "just" had to have a hyst to remove my cervix and uterus. She told me that in 6 months (assuming that biopsy comes out fine -and she expects it to) that I will then go back to annual exams. I can then decide to go back to a regular gyn or stay with her (the gyn/onc). I plan to stay with my gyn/onc. I figure she deals with cancer every day. If anything looks suspicious, I think she'll notice the red flags faster and will be more proactive than a gyn (who delivers babies and deals with pregnancy on a daily basis).
Cancer is horrid. It would be nice to forget about it. The truth is, it is something we (or at least our doctors) need to be mindful of. *IF* (God forbid) there should be a recurrance, I want fast, sure steps to reduce the negative outcome.
((((hugs)))) I know this is difficult. You are further along than me (I'm only 6 months post op), and I am so glad to know that other than the pesky exams it sounds like everything else is going well.
The best we can do is live our lives. Don't let cancer run it.