Hi everyone my name is Eileen, I,m 44 married with 3 children and 4 grandchildren ... they are in short my world ..
I,m here since finding out some potentionally devastating/frightening news this week and I would if possible like some support/advice from anyone who sadly finds themselves here ..
Let me start in the beginning then .. and huge apologies as I have a feeling its going to be a long post ..
A little over a yr ago I began having probs with my bowels .. I have always suffered for wot I can only describe as the most chronic constipation for as long as I can remember but that all changed as I said a little over a yr ago when my 'movements' became much looser and I was needing the loo more often..
This went on for a few weeks and then I began to develop pain/discomfort in my left side .. again this went on for another few weeks and eventually I was admitted to hospital with this pain and because I had gradually begun to lose control of my bowels needing to be in close proximity to a toilet (sorry its so graphic but just cant think of how else to word it
Anyways following this stay in hospital a ct scan and a colonoscopy it was decided I had mild diverticular disease ..
A follow on appt with my gp confirmed this tho he did say to me that it was so mild that he thought this was not the cause of all my pain .. he also said it sounds like I have IBS and if my symptoms had not resolved themselves by my next appt .. he would refer me to the IBS clinical nurse at out hospital .. this appt was to follow in 4 months ... the deadline came and went .. no appt ever arrived ..
Now to my next 'episode'
At the end of Feb this yr I again began experienceing symptoms of pain, urgency in needing loo and I was again admitted to hospital, given ant biotics to treat another 'flare up' .. I was discharged after 6 days and had to come back to hospital 4 days later for another ct scan (just in case I,d developed complications that can accompany diverticual disease) ..That day came and went, and I was sent home and told If anything was found to be 'wrong' then I would be contacted by a consultant/doctor .. asap ..
4 days later, (this weds just gone) I was called by a SHO from the hospital to say my ct scan was clear as regards to what they were looking for .. ie ulcers of bowels but a mass had been found on my right ovary ..
Herein lies my concerns .. I,m immediately thinking the worse now and having since read up on ovarian cancer i now find that my symptoms have been very similar to the point of being almost identical and having googled this I,m even more scared as I,m thinking God thats me ! .. those are my symptoms ..
I need to know does anyone or has anyone experienced same/similar probs as my self before their diagnosis' and do any of u think I,m right in thinking the worst news case scenario .. I have to go back on Mon for an ultrasound scan after which will be seen by doctor who will go through results/findings with me ?
I,m so very scared .. and broken hearted for my family ..
I hope you dont mind me asking these questions but atm I,m struggling and need to just 'talk' to those who are/have gone through what I,m fearing the most ..
Sending you all, my love, hugs and strength and gentle days ahead ..
Eileen a very scared wife mummy and nanna