Hi, Salty.
First, congrats on being a survivor! What a strong person you must be.
I've read that it is not uncommon for cancer survivors to experience Post-traumatic stress disorder because of the trauma of diagnosis and treatment. That could be why you feel scared. It might help to talk to someone experienced in this field, or perhaps you even need some anti-anxiety medication for a brief period of time.
I haven't had cancer, and from what I can tell neither have most of the women on the cervical cancer board here. Most of us have, at one time or another, had precancerous cells removed... but as I'm sure you're aware, that's a far cry from having actual cervical cancer, and dealing with hysterectomy, radiation, chemo, etc.
In fact, one of my pet peeves is when women claim to have (or have had) "cervical cancer"... and then say, "It cleared up on its own, though", or, "I had LEEP/cryo, and that cured it. Since then I've had three kids, and the cancer has never come back!"
It's like, ummm... excuse me, you never had cervical cancer.
I know they don't mean to be dishonest, they just don't understand that CIN is not the same thing as cervical cancer. This is their doctors' fault, really, for not explaining things better.
Many of us on this board had dealings with CIN long ago, and are here trying to educate and support women who are currently dealing with it.
But, yeah, I've only encountered one or two women here- if that- who are actual cancer survivors... and they only had carcinoma in situ, ie. Stage Zero.
You're welcome here, and I'm sure your experience and advice would be very valuable. But as far as finding others with similar experiences... I'm afraid you won't find many here.
Best wishes, and again: congratulations on beating this monster.
