Re: Abnormal PAP
I was diagnosed with warts and 'low grade' HPV/very mild abnormal cells (whatever that means) in 2007. I haven't had a normal pap smear since then. I have had two colpos, and have been PAP-ed every 6 months since early 2007.
The most important thing to remember is that 1. there are a number of other things that can cause an abnormal pap smear, such as hormonal changes, birth control, an underlying low-grade infection (yeast infection), and even inflammation from sex. My doctor seems to think my abnormal paps are due to the HPV, which I suppose is reasonable. But there is hope for it to go away on its own. I've had it for 5 years; hasn't gotten better (or worse, knock on wood.) Keep going to the doctor and follow their instructions, and there's a good chance you will be able to keep it under control.
I feel your frustration and can empathize completely. One thing that helps me is to eat a whole foods diet (greens, greens, greens!) and take a high dose of Folic Acid every day. Folic Acid is an inexpensive supplement that I have *heard* can help reverse some cervical changes, but do not quote me on this, as I am not a medical professional. However two of my good friends took high doses of Folic Acid and it helped their Pap smears.
Finally, try to remember that 75% of the population has or will have HPV at some point or another. You are not alone. I have read stories about women who have struggled for years with abnormal paps, but have gone on to have healthy children and otherwise healthy lives. Get plenty of rest, sleep, down-time, and proper nutrition and it can work wonders.
I have been frustrated by continuing to have abnormal paps, but I try to take things one day at a time and read up on the subject.
I will keep you in my thoughts as I know this can be really scary and frustrating.