I know this is probably a very redundant and reoccurring post for those of you that are frequent visitors of this site. Still, I thought I'd post my own ramblings for my own sake at least.
Im 21 years old and go to a big 4 year university in my state. I have my first pap/OBGYN visit on December 30, 2011. I had been itchy and noticed some bumps come up, and had been meaning to make an appointment anyways just due to my age and sexual history. This being my first pap/visit, obviously it came as a huge shock when she told me that the bumps near the opening of my vagina were "condyloma" or, genital warts. I was crushed and thought my life was over then, little did I know it would get worse.
I got diagnosed with bacterial vaginosis as well as HPV, so I was prescribed Aldara cream, and Flagyl tablets as well as birth control. My test results came back with Abnormal results of "unidentifiable" specimens. My HPV test came back positive for "high-risk" strains of HPV, and my doctor said that that meant the virus was on my cervix causing changes that needed to be looked at more closely. So I was scheduled for a colposcopy, not even 7 days after my first pap. The doctor was very calm and explained to me what was going on and what all this meant and what was going to happen. It actually hurt me quite a bit, but that's kind of the least of my worries at the moment.
I haven't gotten my results back, as my colposcopy was performed this past Thursday, January 5th. I'm back at school now (this all happened over my christmas break) and I'm so nervous. I cry so much over all of this, though it might seem dramatic. I am just so upset that I have HPV, and that this is causing what could possibly be pre-cancerous or cancerous cells. I am so young and completely want a husband and family when I am older, and I'm so scared that all this will jeopardize my future. I have a great guy in my life who was very supportive when I told him about the HPV, which is great. However we are just in the beginning stages of a relationship, if it will even turn into that. So if this doesn't work out, it scares me that I'll never find someone else who can deal with all this.
I am just so scared to get my colposcopy results back, being 5 hours away from home. I am scared I will have HSIL, and have to get a LEEP procedure. I'm just so scared that I'll never be done with this crap and it's only been a week and a half!!! Which I understand may be premature to be so upset and scared but I can't help it. I've never had any medical problems in the past so I can't help but kind of get ahead of myself.
Any advice or experiences anyone would like to share would help me a lot I think, I'm just so helpless and lost at this point