Yeah it is hard. Lately it seems anything that happens with my body, I go into thinking mode. What is it? Is something wrong? Is it because of what happened before?
It is very hard, especially when people don't know or understand about severe anxiety. It's not so much anxiety attacks anymore as of constant thinking which eventually turns into worry.'
I figure by now if anything was serious, there would be signs of it by now. Even talking with my parents they said the same thing. It's been a little over 4months now since I saw that blood. I've seen tiny bits over the 4months, twice to be exact but I know what they were from anyways so it didn't really phase me.
It's just the look of the stool throwing me off. My first movements look normal and round, but the last little bit that comes out always looks like it has flat sides but are never ribbon-like. It also doesn't happen all the time either. It's not constantly happening.
It only seem to start happening after I read about it too.