Re: hope 1220
Hang in there, our stories are very similar...I lost dad this past Thanksgiving moring, his birthday was a couple days ago on December 19th, he would have been 61. On his birthday my family and I went to the cemetary and brought him balloons and a cupcake, we all sang happy birthday, it was very sad, but it helped us get through the day. I was at his wake on my birthday. And now Christmas is coming...it's hard to go on, one thing that helps me is that I have the little ones. 9yrs., 4yrs., and 5 months. As hard as it is I have to make the holiday good for them. I also think too...Dad is in a better place. I just think he is in heaven looking down upon us and watching over us every minute of every day. It's just a special feeling I have inside that helps me go on. Yes, there are tears everyday, sometimes more sometimes less but I am turning those tears of sadness and emptyness into happness, knowing that he is not in pain and that he is with his mom and dad and family that went before him. For me it makes things easier to feel and think this way. I hope this helps you just a bit...my thoughs and prayers are with you during the holiday season.