my mom was the same way. she didnt want to ruin a holiday so she held on til 4 days after christmas. (always the one to prove a point!! lol) I keep asking myself is this going to get any easier? i know alot of people say yes, but sometimes i have my doubts, although its only been less than 6 months. these 1st's have been so hard. At least i have my boyfriend to talk to about this, (his mom died of breast cancer about 4 or 5 years ago) I know its never going to be "easy" but God i hope it get alittle less painful!
My 8 year old daughter wore my moms work I.D. badge to work on moms b-day. I thought it was very sweet of her to do. they miss her so much too. And was able to have Grandma live with them the last 16 months of her life. So they got to learn alot from her. ( even how to walk around the house in their underwear and a t-shirt lol

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I know i'm babbling but its good to have these memories cuz it helps ease the pain of losing her. I hope things get easier for u 2 Lady J, cuz I dont think a women ever stops needing her mom. i'm only 30 and still have lots of questions about parenting and life advise for her to answer ( after all she did such a great job with me and my sisters

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God i hate Cancer!!