| Happy Birthday Mum
Monday would have been my mums birthday – this time last year she was staying with me and everything was great – well to be truthful, not entirely great – she was having problems with my dad but she and I were totally reconciled after a few years problems and I thought life would be ok. Twelve months on and my life’s a total mess – coping with a mentally disturbed father, a husband struggling to come to terms with losing his dad from lung cancer at only 69 and my lovely mum dead from the same thing. We seem to do nothing but row and all I can think about is how disappointed mum would be. She really liked my husband – we’ve only been married a couple of years but she was so sure he was right for me. She’d been very fond of my first husband and the falling out between me and my parents had come when I’d left him……they could never understand why. My first husband was a really nice person but I didn’t love him and decided that life was too short to be with the wrong partner. All I can think now is how much easier my life would have been if I had stayed with him – everyone would have been happy (except me!!!). It’s 9 in the evening here in the UK and my husband has gone off in a temper…….again!!!!! I just need to get through the next few days….I’m sure when the first birthday has gone it won’t be quite so bad………….I feel that perhaps I'm over-reacting - I've just seen on the news that another US hostage has been beheaded in Iraq and I can't even begin to imagine how awful that must be for all his family but humans are a fairly selfish race and all I can really think is how terrible my life is without mum to turn to for advice on just everything......sorry to sound off......be nice to know that people on here will understand how I feel and be thinking of me………
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