Jordie

Firstly I want to say that many of you on this board are the bravest people with such kind hearts and are so giving.

I am so scared right now, I can't stop crying uncontrollably. I think I have cancer, I am thinking the worst.

Here's my problem. I am a 31 yr old smoker (wish I never began) for about 15 years, not heavy though, probably a mild smoker. Am currently on patches trying to give them away. This is incredibly difficult, even when you know the problems it's causing you, they still have such a grasp over you. Anyway, I'm doing OK with it.

I have a constant cough, it's like a dry tickle in my chest. I also have some pain in my right shoulder and back. I have been to the doctors 2 weeks ago, he thinks I have some mild asthma maybe bought on by stress (I suffer from panic and anxiety). He gave me a ventolin but 2 weeks later I still had the cough, so I went back, hysterical by this stage.

He saw the state I was in and ordered me a CT scan, which I just had today. Obviously I am thinking the worst, but I just can't help it. I seem to have the symptoms. Can anyone out there help me, even just so I can get through this weekend without collapsing, that's how I feel right now, I cannnot cope with this.

Thanks.