mrsdlash

Dear All, My Don died a sloooow, aganozing death...best described by saying, "When I realized he just took his last breath, I fell to my knees and cried out, "Thank You God !"
He wieghed only about 50 lbs. My fingers, touched as
I reached around..what used to be the muscles of a Carpenter/machinast. Now, he was the size of a child.
He had the<< death moan>>That lasted for 3 horrible days AND LONG NIGHTS, After about 10 days of not able to drink his diet drinks, like Ensure. And, the last 4 days he only had sips, then drops of water.
I stayed by his side every moment I could and had to get the Hospice's Nurses orders to leave him for a nap.
He got the death rattle but then it would quit, over and again. It was trying my nerves!Fineally, as I sat alone with him, it lasted almost exactly an hour, then died.
The BEST part.. was the night that my husband said good bye to me.
~~~~~~~~~ He was unable to life his arms for two days.
But, when I tucked him in to sleep that night; he slowly raised his arms up as I leaned over him. Then he weakly hugged me and tried to kiss me. I kissed him, as my heart cried with joy!
Then he took my face in his hudge, yet, boney, hard working man's hands, and said, "I didn't mean too." (get sick, was the words left out) My tears started to fall so I buried my face into his tiny bony shoulder. I caught my breath quickly and raised my head again to look in his face (too stop my tears). Don said, "water drops?" I said, 'What"? he could only communicate with jumbled up words now. He repeated, "Water drops"?? Realizeing what he ment, I said, "tears, yes.' He tried to hold me tighter. My tears flowed then . Hot tears from a my heart that burned with love for him.
The rest of the hours are too painful to describe to you now. I hope to soon so that others may be helped. If I had of known what to expect..I think it would have helped me to not get so scared about.."What is Next>" "How bad will it be from now on??!!"
I must try to rest. I had seizures at the Funeral home. I am praying that I won't have to suffer the indignity, of seizures in the crowds during the funeral.
Oh and there 'will' be a crowd. Because, My Don was loved by so many people that somedays I could not get all of his visitors into my house. many were strung out onto the front patio.
I arranged the funeral to be on Sat. so that they can all come to it. This will be exciting to be in the mist of the crowds of people that truely loved this...true friend, this loving,caring,humble, exceptional man. This man was soo giving that he even gave away to homes that were were buying. Because, he worried that they really needed to help them that way. So, off each time, he was to get another one for us.
He gave away automobils, some paid off, and some mostly paid off. He gave away his best of what he had and what he could get for them.
Most of all, he gave away his heart and never was pickey, about who to be genereous to. I have been hearing from people that he helped over 20 yrs ago. They wanted him to know how much they have always love him.
I feel honored to know him best, and chosen to be his wife.
I pray for all that come here to be healed body mind and sole and loved dearly, Hugs Donna
My family is helping me now. The funeral is starting tonight. The burial will be on Sat. to be best for everyone that wants to attend.
prayers of heath and love, hugs, Donna

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