The only thing I can think to tell you is that you are not alone in this. Everyone on this board cares about you and is pulling for you and yours. I've felt it, my wife, God bless her, felt it. I hope that you feel it to.
No words can make this situation easier or harder, only the knowledge that you are not alone, we all care, and we are here for you can do that.
Bless you, Dear,