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My heart goes out to you,I lost my mom to sclc on Feb.18th 2006.She was in hospice care 2 weeks before she passed.I, like you, moved in with my mom .My mom had alot of good days in the end.The day before she passed while we were sleeping I woke up to a gurguling sound.She also woke up and said she had to pee.We had her pot at the end of the bed,but this time I couldnt get her there because she couldnt help me at all.Not even any upper body strength.Her blood pressure had been low and every time she would sit up, she would be dizzy and confused and sometimes shakey.(the nurse said lay her back down when this happens)I called my husband for some help.Anyways she really didnt have to pee, she just thought she had to.In one of her confused moments she sang holes in the floor of heaven to me and talked alot about her mother and alot about the pretty flowers.I knew that something was about to happen.I got her laid back down and I sat up .She started gurguling again, I called hospice.They said lay her on her side and they would be out in the morning.Well morning came and the sun come out and mom wanted to go outside in the sunshine.I told her maybe she should wait until the nurse came and checked her.She looked at me and said I didnt have a good night did I?I said no moma you didnt.She said punkin im ready to get dressed, so as I was getting her dressed the nurse came and checked her and said she had a little fluid in her lungs and called her in some lasiks.My mom told the nurse she was ready to go outside, so the nurse is like ok have a nice day,well i had already called our immediate family because i just knew.As I rolled my mom down that ramp,into the sunshine,she had tears rolling down her face and she said Its the little things in life that is taken for granted like the sunshine.My aunt had come up and was talking with mom.I ran the nurse down and told her i felt like this was her last day and I was scared.The nurse said no she was doing to good and that she couldnt justify a 24 hour nurse to come out while she is sitting outside and doing so good.I got upset and told her I would call her supervisor because I knew my mom was going.Well she said she would get me a nurse and said the nurse would be there about 4.I enjoyed the rest of the day outside with mom.I got a call about 3:30 and it was the nurse asking if mom was still outside I said yes but shes really tired now and Im going to take her in.She told me she cancelled the nurse because she just couldnt justify it.I told her I would call someone else and speak to them about her.Well as I was getting mom laid down there was a knock at the door.There before me stood the most beautifulist angel.It was the 24 hr nurse and she said she never got a cancellation call.As soon as she walked in moms bedroom mom woke up and said hello angel.
after the nurse checked her she came and talked to us and told us her lungs were filled up with fluid and her blood pressure was very low and it wouldnt be long.My mom was in and out of sleep and the nurse said the longer she slept the more likely she wouldnt come backto us so we kept waking her up I asked her if she wanted to hear some music and she said yes so we all got out the guitars and sang some of her favorite George Jones gospel.After we sang(mom sang too)the nurse said she had a fever and her blood pressure was very low.She asked everyone to give me and mom some time alone and after everyone left mom put her arms up to me and as I laid on her hugging her she told me not to be scared and that she was tired now.I kissed her and told her it was ok and to go dance in heaven with daddy...and she did.I know this post is extra long but I believe when its your moms turn you will know.