Then, Jim...bring on the radiation.
I'm feeling a little more positive at this moment..and I'll take that feeling because I woke up feeling so depressed and knew I can't go on like this. After a visit with our wonderful GP who threw some positive light on this, and then, looking back on the book I've just read by Mary Carolyn Cook Gervais, "In Sickness and in Health: Surviving Prostate Cancer Together", I reminded myself that her husband actually had positive margins and extraprostatic extension too...and he came through. My selective memory forgot about that fact.
Now, your message, is the 3rd positive thing today. I need to feel positive, if even just for today to give my emotional state a break. I know there will be many days with tears and fears, but it's the moments in between with positive thoughts and hope which will save me from sinking in this. I hope those positive moments will start to overtake the negative thoughts.
Thanks, Jim, for helping to give me hope. It means so, so much.