Extremely upset about biopsy-Doctor said she is worried-I am so upset
Ill try and sum it up as best as possible.....
I am 23 years old.....in the plans to marry my amazing boyfriend next spring.
When I was in high school...I worked at a tanning salon and tanned every day for probably 2 years. When I graduated, I went to a dermatologist and he said that he wanted to biopsy a few spots ( 2 on my chest, 2 on my hands/fingers, and 1 on my thigh), they all came back fine-he told me they were "pre-cancerous". It scared me enough to stop tanning. I think they were atypical nevi. About 1 year ago, I had a freckle/mole that I was worried about, went to my family doctor, and he said it was nothing to worry about, but he would remove it to make me feel better. It was also nothing when it came back.
Like an idiot, last fall, following a bad breakup, I began tanning when I joined eHarmony. I've tanned maybe 3 times a week max since then....feeling guilty all the while.
I had a spot under my fingernail that looked like a bruise, was sensitive to cold, and hurt really bad for about a year. I was at my family doctor for Adipex visit (weightloss medicine) (I've lost about 40 lbs this past year and am at about 170 now...I'm 5'8") and mentioned it in passing. He suggested I see a dermotolgist....so he sched me with one, but it wasnt for like 20 days. I called around and found one that could get me in sooner. This was 2 weeks ago. He looked at it and said he thought it was a glomus tumor and that I needed to go to a surgeon and have it removed. Within 5 days I had the surgery, it was on my left 3rd digit, they removed the nail, then removed the tumor. She glanced at a dark freckle that was on the underside of the same finger and asked if the derm looked at it, I said yes, he did a full body check, and told me since I had been tanning, to come back yearly for f/u appts. I QUIT TANNING THE DAY OF MY SURGERY! The surgeon said that she got it all, we'd wait for the biopsy, but that she was pretty sure it'd be fine as most glomus tumors are benign. They called last week that it was benign. Whoooo!!!!
Ok, so I go for my follow-up yesterday....the surgeon looks at the site...says its healing great...continue care....congrats on stopping tanning...etc....
She then looks at that freckle again, says...I'm going to call your derm real quick, leaves, and comes back saying that she talked to him, he's good, she wants to take this freckle off (it was a "dark brown macule" , had just appeared maybe six months ago?) I said ok...i like to be cautious anyways.
She states "I'm really worried about it" and I said "like melanoma worried?" and she says "yes, i'm very concerned"
So now I am freaking out, they said the biopsy can take 7-14 dAys.
How am I going to wait that long.
And then, why didn't my derm think it was suspicious at all....and she is freaking out?
And why tell me that she is so worried, bc now I am freaking out?
I called the office back after I left and spoke with a nurse who said realistically it would take 5 days but that they tell patients longer just in case, etc, but not to worry too much....blah blah blah
I don't want to die....I love my life....I'm not ready.....
Please help with any comments or help
Thanks so much for your patience,