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Old 07-25-2008, 05:45 PM   #1
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I hate having to take care of my mother.

That is the truth. She has lung cancer, and I have to make all her appointments, get her there, talk for her???? She is of sound mind, etc.. she can speak for herself, and keep track of her appts. She even wants me to do her bills, as I did last month when she was in hospital. I won't do it. The only way in the past I have gotten along with her was by phone. I only saw her on holidays.. even though I live just 5 mins from her. I am resentful that I have to take her for chemo, and radiation, and that one is every day. Plus all the doctor appts. My other two sisters have to work. I don't.. so I am stuck with it all..and I hate it! Does this make me a bad person???

 
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That is the truth. She has lung cancer, and I have to make all her appointments, get her there, talk for her???? She is of sound mind, etc.. she can speak for herself, and keep track of her appts. She even wants me to do her bills, as I did last month when she was in hospital. I won't do it. The only way in the past I have gotten along with her was by phone. I only saw her on holidays.. even though I live just 5 mins from her. I am resentful that I have to take her for chemo, and radiation, and that one is every day. Plus all the doctor appts. My other two sisters have to work. I don't.. so I am stuck with it all..and I hate it! Does this make me a bad person???
NO NOT A BAD PERSON JUST A MAD DAUGHTER. ALL THE BURDEN FELL ON YOU. THEIR IS ALWAYS ONE GOOD AND CARING CHILD IN THE FAMILY THAT GETS STUCK WITH THE DEPRESSING PART OF LOSING A FAMILY MEMBER. I DON'T KNOW HOW OLD YOU ARE BUT I'M SURE IT'S TAKING A CHUNK OUT OF YOUR SOCIAL LIFE AND PRIVACY. I COMMEND YOU FOR THE MERE FACT THAT YOU ARE DOING THIS WHEN YOU DON'T WANT TO ,WHICH SAYS A LOT FOR WHO YOU ARE. STAY STRONG AND YOU WON'T REGRET IT. I PROMISE. GOD BLESS YOU AND GIVE YOU PEACE.

 
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Old 07-25-2008, 06:01 PM   #3
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Re: I hate having to take care of my mother.

I'm not trying to be glib, but you know what I'd do? Tell your sisters you going to look for a Job, and your wondering what day they want to take. Hey, you'd probably enjoy a job more plus have some extra cash.

 
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That is the truth. She has lung cancer, and I have to make all her appointments, get her there, talk for her???? She is of sound mind, etc.. she can speak for herself, and keep track of her appts. She even wants me to do her bills, as I did last month when she was in hospital. I won't do it. The only way in the past I have gotten along with her was by phone. I only saw her on holidays.. even though I live just 5 mins from her. I am resentful that I have to take her for chemo, and radiation, and that one is every day. Plus all the doctor appts. My other two sisters have to work. I don't.. so I am stuck with it all..and I hate it! Does this make me a bad person???
Hello Nikk,

It seems that your mother has entrusted you with her daily activities.

I can understand the resentment but you must realize that it is quite possible that you are the best person for the "job" so to speak.

The past cannot be made up for, by any means; all we really have is the present. If she is making an attempt to reconcile with you, please, at least try to recognize that.

"I wonder what life would be like for me when I am older; would a family member be able to take care of me, or be willing to."

No one wants to feel alone.

Respectfully stated,

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Re: I hate having to take care of my mother.

It sounds like you have a chip on your shoulder from long time ago and refuse to let it fall. I have a daughter who thinks I treated her wrong all during her growing up years, which is not true, but, that is how she perceives it. I love her dearly but everything I ever say is twisted into something else which makes communication very difficult. I could tell her that I love her and she would twist that into a negative. Are you by chance similar to my daughter?

I was a caregiver to my terminally ill mother-in-law and it was a difficult and hard job but very rewarding in the long run. I did feel chained to the house. I also stayed at the hospital 24/7 with each of my parents after a major car accident and again when they broke their hips at ages 93 and 98. I did not want them to be alone with strangers, everyone deserves to have a loving family member with them when things are rough.

It is not fair for one child to be burdened with a parent's care. You should tell your siblings that you will take care of your mom on such and such days and for them to choose other days to do so. Take turns. What would they do if you worked too? Arrangements would have to be made, make them now.

I lost my sister to lung cancer last year and it is not an easy disease to have. She always had problems with her daughter-in-laws but when she became ill they came thru caring for her to the end. The d-i-l that did the most care worked a full time job too.

Being faced with death is overwhelming and may interfer with a person's real ability to take care of themselves. External looks does not always tell the story. Chemo is poison to the body, good cells and bad. It takes a toll on a person.

You may be a person who wishes your mom would just go ahead and die, I don't know. Having compassion for the person who brought you into the world is really not too much to ask.

When mother's and daughters do not get along, it is usually a two-way street, both have their faults and both must work to solve issues. Forgiving each other while both are still alive will be a blessing to you.

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Well said Misty.

 
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I was a caregiver for the past ten years for my Mom. She died just 9 days ago and I miss her very, very much. She had lung cancer the last 2 years of her life (and an amputee of the leg for almost 15 years).

I was her sole caregiver as my one and only brother decided he would have nothing to do with her care. He very rarely called or even came to see her.
Taking care of my Mom who was terminal was the most difficult job God has ever given me. We went through good times and bad times...together. It was extremely difficult the last month of her life as she became so very ill.
But in the end, she passed away as I held her hand and she was surrounded by the ones she loved.

Everyone deserves to die with dignity. I feel it was a blessing to be given such an important job by GOD to take care of my Mom. Yes, it took over my entire life, but I will never regret one day that I took care of her. I know that she is finally at peace now and so am I knowing that she is in Heaven.

I've learned through this experience that life isn't all about ME. It's about what I can do for others. So Nikk, maybe just take a moment and think about taking care of your mom and how great a gift to her that would be.
I can guarantee you will NEVER regret one minute.

My prayers are with you and your mom.

 
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I do believe a caregiver has been directly appointed by God. I just did it for one month for a gal who has a rare disease that only 200 people in the world have been diagnosed with. I found out what it really means to be a servant. It takes its toll on you. But if you keep in mind that you are working for God and you reward comes from Him not to mention how valuable it is that you are helping a sick person that may only have you to count on. God Bless all of you who do this!

 
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Nikk

I was caregiver for my parents and for my first husband that had cancer. I know what you are going through. It's not fair that all the responsibility has fallen on your shoulders. Hopefully some of the other members of your family will help in some of your Mom's care. What would your Mom do if you got sick?

My prayers are with you Nikk. Don't forget to take care of you. You are a special and caring person.

Nadine

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Old 08-12-2008, 08:54 PM   #10
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Nikk,
I would ask you to consider this situation as an opportunity/gift to rebuild a relationship with your mother. I have heard time and time again from people who have opened their hearts to these situations and say it was the greatest gift ever, even if they didn't see it that way in the beginning. Your mother is probably scared and lonely and she is reaching out to you for help. If you are able to help her, I am sure the love will come back to you many times over. No one is perfect, and no relationship is ideal, but there is always a chance for forgiveness and moving past, or at least moving around, obstacles from our past to build a connection with those closest to us. Your mother trusts you to help with her medical care and finances, and if you are able to do that, I think it would be a beautiful thing. Please try to see the positive and the opportunity to spend some time with your mom when she needs you most. This isn't to say your sisters couldn't contribute to her care as well ... if you all work together it could bring all of you closer. Just try to see the chance for something wonderful to come from this, and maybe it will!
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That is the truth. She has lung cancer, and I have to make all her appointments, get her there, talk for her???? She is of sound mind, etc.. she can speak for herself, and keep track of her appts. She even wants me to do her bills, as I did last month when she was in hospital. I won't do it. The only way in the past I have gotten along with her was by phone. I only saw her on holidays.. even though I live just 5 mins from her. I am resentful that I have to take her for chemo, and radiation, and that one is every day. Plus all the doctor appts. My other two sisters have to work. I don't.. so I am stuck with it all..and I hate it! Does this make me a bad person???
I pray that you never need help because what we put out comes back around to you.

 
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I pray that you never need help because what we put out comes back around to you.

Then I suppose she is getting back from me what she put into my awful childhood. She was a horrible mother. Not one ounce of love in her .. oh til now.. she will say love ya, makes me cringe.. It is too late for me to ever feel anything good about her.

 
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Then I suppose she is getting back from me what she put into my awful childhood. She was a horrible mother. Not one ounce of love in her .. oh til now.. she will say love ya, makes me cringe.. It is too late for me to ever feel anything good about her.
You may have a point there about her recieving what she put out. But YOU my dear can stop the cycle now/today/yesterday. Why not forgive her, so you can live without having to repeat the same thing. Would you rather have cancer eating up your body with no one around to love and support you? or would you rather have support with loving hands to support you?

 
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Nikki, I really think you need to talk to someone about your problem, is there an chance of that happening. You could be doing just what you doing right now, but feeling way better about it, only you can control how you feel, do you want to always feel bad or do you really want to feel better about everything? Your choice as always.

 
Old 08-29-2008, 09:28 PM   #15
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My Mother did lots of horrible things to me during my adult life and caused so much trouble in my marriage and with my daughter that I had every right to never speak to her again. She developed colon cancer and although I was by then 1000 miles away and had a brother living only 30 minutes from her (although useless) I quit my job and went there and took care of her for the last 8 months of her life. YES IT WAS HARD but it gave me the opportunity to get an answer and apology for all the deceptive things she had done. In the end my Mother realized that I was there NO MATTER WHAT........she was my Mother and I have no regrets whatsoever today that I spent those last months with her. I would do it again. Forgiveness is the road to happiness!

 
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