Caregiver for 94 yr old Mom
I am new to this site. I attempted suicide 15 days ago by mixing alcohol & benzos. Luckily I did not suceed. I have been the sole caregiver for my Mom for the past 14 yrs, after her brain anuerysm. I have a twin sister living in New Mexico and a brother who lives in Minnesota...I live in Illinois. Needless to say I offered to move back from Florida to take care of Mom if she made it through her surgery 14 yrs ago...with the understanding that it would be mutally shared by all 3 siblings. Since that time...we have had absolutely no contact with my brother and my twin sister manages to visit 2 times a year .... basically to visit with her friends and take my Mom out a few times. I reached out numerous times for help and nobody would listen. I begged my sister to come and get Mom and take her home with her for at least a month to give me a break...she told me that would just kill her! My sister has been retired for 3 years and has a very comfortable life. I on the other hand have devoted my entire life to taking care of OUR Mother! She has a clamp in her head that stopped the anuerysm from leaking, high blood pressure, congestive heart failure, neuropathy, and recently diagnosed with alzheimers & epilepsy. She is home bound and uses a walker all the time. I called my sister the day of my attempt and begged her to help me out...as things were getting to be overwhelming for me...she told me that it must "sucks to be you"....and proceeded to tell me she was on her way to her swimming pool....that pushed me right over the edge.