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Originally Posted by PolishGuy  Hi everyone.
I am 24 year old and I was born with Cerebral palsy. When I was growin up I cannot say that I accepted myself due to my disability. When I was age of seventeen I have tried to commit suicide. The reasons were few: I could't handle other people jokes about me at school etc.... I have had a very good relationship with my girlfriend but because her parents didnt accept me we split up. I am currently studying in London and everything seems to be allright but is not. I am religious myself have wonderful friends and family but the loneliness is killing me inside. Everyone is saying : Everythings goonna be allright. You will find your love one day......When???? When I am gonna be 50??. It is very hard to live in this emtyness. I don't want to talk to my parents about this, because they will never understand. I have tried .......and nothing. Sometimes I wish I could be as a normal healthy guy, because even if I am good looking people always look first at my disability and personality is far behind.
I am scared of this feelings from the past regarding suicide thoughts, smoking cannabis to meake me feel more happy but I feel like they keep comming back to me
My dream is to have wonderful wife with kids to whom I will give all my love but it is very hard to fight with these thoughts.
Guys how you deal with problems regarding to be disabled person????
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I am a 24 year old female that has had depression since I was 11. It didn't start out as depression because of my CP but eventually now, it has come to include my disability.
And a lot lately it's that I will never find the husband and the kids. I think it's the age, I don't know about you but it seems for me that everyone around me is getting married and having kids and just doing that thing. I don't even have any more single friends; unless they have kids. I get the loneliness.
I'm really anti-medication so I won't go there. I did try talk therapy but it wasn't for me, it was the biggest waste of $100/hr. I've ever known.
For me having disabled friends has been the biggest anti-depressant I've known. Having a disabled single friend would be even better. (Not to say that I don't have non disabled friends but as dear as they are they just don't understand that part of me.)
When I need a pick me up there is a pretty entertaining podcast by BBC (free from iTunes or even your favorite search engine,) featuring two disabled co-hosts, you should check it out if you haven't.
For me I haven't found a silver bullet I just try the best I can. It's an every day battle for me to get out there and join the world but I just keep trying.
Finally, and I know it's lame but suicide isn't the answer and I've really been there. You need to call someone to talk you down, I know it's hard for family to understand. Even if you called some confidential hot line, you need to talk to someone.
Good luck to you.
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