Hi I'm disabled with cerebral palsy, 17 and contemplating adult life and finding it depressingly lacking. I study the sciences, live well but see no point to this torture of an existance I shall have no mile stones no life, love only hollow often pain inducing lust I try Pornography but it feels wrong to me. I have no real long term friends or partners and only my anxity inducing loneliness for company.
I have met no other disabled people my age or in my case none with whom I can connect. My hormones much to my ire irritate me with longings of that which I veiw as unobtainible. This is because there are studies into the gentics of my condition and I refuse to pass this to a child. Whats more my disability would foster only bitter resentment in any relationship and I can't ask to be cared for in sickness and yet more sickness.So i come here for hope, compassion and a resion to live
The following user gives a hug of support to antjack678: Leaciesmum (11-21-2010)
Aww mate my heart goes out to you, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I know it sounds stupid but try to look at the positives in everything, it's hard but you can do it if you just give it a go.
It must be hard feeling so left our and unloved, but honestly I've met both online and in real life many disabled people who have gone on to find the love of their lives and even have families. You say your CP could be genetic, there are genetic counselors that can help you with this when the time comes.
I don't think anyone going into a relationship with someone with CP would harbour any resentment toward them for their disability. They know what they are getting into. Love know's no limits.
You may think your life has no meaning, but listen when I tell you...each and every human being has purpose in this life, even if we never understand it. I bet you've made an impact on so many people already in your 17 years, even if they haven't said so. I know my little girl who has CP has touched so many people in her short life so far. She, like you is an inspiration. The challenges she tackles and overcomes everyday, the pain she endures but still manages to smile, her wicked sense of humour. Now your an Aussie (like her) I KNOW what a wicked sense of humour you must have.
I've seen people with CP go on to wonderful things in their lives, and you can too. If you're feeling really down and have no one to talk to, ring Lifeline or even better, get yourself in to see a counsellor, they will help you see that you are a very valuable person who is loved and is making a difference in this world.
Big (((hugs))) for you mate, I'm always checking in here if you ever need to vent.
I just wanted to say everything that Leaciesmum said was spot on. You've come this far. You've fought to get to 17, and your still young.
Keep going. You cannot right off love yet, love is the most pwerful thing, and if you fall in love together, no amount of CP and disbibilty will matter. Also look back through the threads, you will find a lady and a man with spastic quad CP who have married and now successfully adopted a child.
You are going to make a difference with your life if you keep going. Look at Stephen Hawkin.