I am not close to having children, but the thought of doing it one day petrifies me. I'm wondering if anyone out there who suffers from chronic fatigue who has had children has any words of wisdom. I am never refreshed or well-rested. On top of having chronic fatigue, I also suffer from a bladder condition called interstitail cystitis, which adds insult to injury by causing me to have to get up to use the bathroom every 1-2 hours of the night without fail. I go all week at work by pushing myself (and that's with 10 hours of sleep) and then MUST catch up on the weekends by sleeping about 12 hours and napping in the afternoons to feel remotely decent and have some energy. I obviously will not be able to do this with small children. I am 35 years old and not married and am stressed out about having to possibly have kids on my own which just seems impossible feeling like this. If I do marry, I would obviously need to be with someone very understanding (which I plan to do anyway
), but I feel like I would be so cranky and run down all of the time. I just cannot imagine a child waking me up at 6am when I need more sleep than it does! I don't have to get up for work until 830AM and I find that incredibly difficult!
Any thoughts would be much appreciated as my potential days as a single mother are approaching and I am giving this A LOT of thought!