I really do not know how much longer I can take this
. I have been seriously incapacited since October of 2007 with this illness. I was bedridden at that time for 6 weeks. Since then, I have slowly rehabilitated and returned to work in January of 2008, though, I can see that coming to an end soon. I CAN'T WORK AN 8-HOUR SHIFT.
I CAN'T MEET MY QUOTAS.
I CAN'T CLEAN MY HOUSE.
I CAN'T PLAY WITH MY KIDS.
I CAN'T GO TO SOCIAL ENGAGEMENTS.
I CAN'T MAKE IT TO CHURCH.
I CAN'T SCHEDULE ANYTHING BECAUSE I NEVER KNOW IF I WILL BE TO TIRED TO MAKE IT.
I feel like my life has been ruined
......I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!
The harder I try, the more tired I get!!
Every second of every day I feel like I could just crash and sleep for a year and I can't stand it - and nobody can do anything about it because IT IS A CHRONIC ILLNESS!! OMG!!
I'm so sorry for venting, but, nobody I know understands.