I've read so many pages on this thread, that I think I'm confused but anyway...
I've had anxiety and fatigue/sleepiness for as long as I can remember. Well, at least 20 years.
The anxiety was first attributed to mitral valve prolapse (which I have since found out that I do not have). I was treated with heart medication in the early 90's for it, and I had no idea about anxiety or panic attacks.
I've always had a hard time getting to know people. I never had friends, I jsut never felt comfortable talking to or being around people. I still struggle with that ALOT now.
The fatigue/sleepiness has caused LOTS of fights with now ex-husband. He couldnt understand it, he took it personal, and yeah it did cause alot of problems between us.
I've always been diagnosed with depression, then eventually the anxiety. The anxiety was taking over my life, I became house bound, I would even worry myself to death over trivial things like- do i take a shower or bath? Because in my state of extreme chronic panic, I could fall and bust my head open if I shower, BUT if I take a bath, I might pass out and then drown. It was hell.
That was years and years ago, thank goodness I am no where near that now. I think being married to a jerk made me very much worse. Now that I'm single all this time, and consistantly have been on anti-anxiety meds, I'm so much better.
I've been on Klonopin for three years, which has helped my anxiety tremendously. I've been very cautious in not upping my dose or asking for more than I need. It's helped me, along with Lexapro, so much that I was able to start taking a stimulant last year to help with my sleepiness.
I did start the stimulant with a low dose, just in case. But a year later, I am still much better with the anxiety than I have ever been.
As for the medications, after being on Lexapro three years, I think it numbed me out emotionally, made me adhedonic. I tapered off about a month ago and started a low dose of Wellbutrin SR. I still take the Klonopin, at night, so it doesnt cancel out the stimulant in the day.
I'm sick of depending on meds, especially meds that are so strong.
Oh, I also saw where someone mentioned in this thread about intellegence. I missed alot of school, regular and nursing school, but my grades, even at age 36, are still awesome. I'm a great test taker, but to talk to me, you would think I am ditzy
My daughter, at 16, has been diagnosed with social anxiety. It has made me so sad, but Prozac has made a world of difference in her. I hate to think that I have given either of my children any of this.
My son, at 12, has ALWAYS been sleepy. I mean, always.
And that's my (shortened) story of anxiety and fatigue!