| | Diagnosed With CFS……Im Fed Up
I wake up, i don't feel refreshed. My brain, and my body, do not feel right. I get a heavy lethargic feeling that fluctuates throughout the day, most of the time its bad. I also have a dull but heavy pressure feeling behind my eyes that also fluctuates throughout the day. My brain hurts constantly throughout the day, i can only describe it as a dull pulsating feeling that is most noticeable on the sides of my head. Sometimes when i get up from sitting or laying down, i get this euphoric buzz feeling in my brain, and it make my body tingle. It only last for maybe 2-4 seconds, than it goes away. At my worse, I feel like i got hit by a bus. Theres no muscle pain, or tenderness, but my whole body feels rundown and completely exhausted. Concentration is hard for me, its like I’m not always “there” or “with it”. I am NOT depressed, I cant stress that enough. I don't want to live my life like this, always feeling like this, always wishing i felt normal, always hoping that one day i’ll get better. I want to feel normal so I can actually ENJOY my life to the fullest. I just want to feel better again, like I used to. It’s not fair for anyone to live their life like this. I hate talking about it with people, because they don't understand how I really feel. I need help. Tried prozac, failed. Doctors want me to take cymbalta, but because im 18, im afraid to experiment with drugs like that. My mother also has Fibro-Myalgia, my doctor said im genetically pre-disposed to this type of ailment.