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Old 01-30-2008, 06:55 AM   #1
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Hello everyone,

I have not been posting very much and I apologize. I am feeling very sad and I have been crying at least one time a day for the last week.

The surgery that I had was only to address part of my neck and spine problems and while I feel that it helped I am still left with the other stuff that at this time I feel as though if I did not have the burning pain that goes down my neck and then stops just below the neck line lateral to my spine and left sided, I think that I would be getting off the meds.

I am really taking them only for the left over stuff that has not been addressed. I would either need fusion or a artificial disc to help with those issues that I am left with and the thought of yet another surgery and on top of that another one on my neck are really quite frightening. I am scared!

I am concerned about a lot of things and I have some huge fears of the unkown of course.

At this time I am in my one class at school and on Tuesday I am in a lecture form 230 pm -345pm a 15 min break then lab from 4-645pm. Thurs only lecture from 230-345pm

We were using the microscopes and although all I really did was sit for a while and stand a while looking into a microsope was pretty unbearable even with a neck brace on or off.

My professor and I talked about my health and she has given me permission to get up and leave the romm if need be. She knows about all my issues at the present.

I am very emotional and cry often.
I feel alone even though I know I am not
I am greving the loss of more of my independence and mobility and activity!

You know I dont get out very much any more because it aggravates my pain that I have to recover for a day or two after.

You guys I am full of a lot of fears and I cant do anything about them. Some of them are valid yes but some are just my human head going off with all kinds of senerios trying to process where I am at.

Instant gratification...I want to know NOW if I will be needing this other surgery and when ...I want to know NOW if I need to change my career focus and if I will not be able to fulfil my dream of becoming a nurse...

I dont get to know all those things NOW...only on God's time.

So very frustrating. Since my arm injury in 2004 then the big 20 days inbetween the ending of one long arm injury dragged out ordeal and then the begining of the neck injuy in july 0f 2007 I feel more and more like my life is being put on hold and bits and pieces are being taken away from me.

At this point I can barley go to school and 12 step meetings.

Ok I am just going off now and rambling

I am so sad about the direction my life has taken and I am tired of having to be in pain and take pills that barley help at times. I do not know what to do about my saddness I have been feeling lately.
Has anyone that has had a neck or cervical surgery had this overwhelming saddness after???


Please help me to get out of this funk!!! I honestly have so much to be grateful for in my life!!! It could be way worse than it really is. I just want to stop feeling so sad.

Please help...Chrissy

 
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Re: Feeling very sad & emotional, the burnig pain is really wearing on me! Help!!

I know that chronic pain can be VERY depressing. Have you asked your Dr about antidepressents ? Some work wonders for some people with very little side effects. I have tried Lexapro but that was 40.00 a month so my Dr switched me to Celexa which is where Lexapro was actually made from. Walmart sells the generic form for 4.00.
Are you able to take anything for pain ? The thing with Chronic Pain I have learned is that we have to learn how to take our meds when needed and not just for fun. Yes... we may become DEPENDENT on them and some folks say that is the same as addiction. But what is worse... not enjoying or living LIFE or suffering daily ?

 
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Hope is so important, and it sounds like you are having trouble seeing it. Do you feel like the situation is hopeless?

I wouldn't have made it this far without having someone to talk to. I am so fortunate to have a therapist that understands what I'm going through and has such good insights into my suffering and how to find hope. Sometimes she has to pound it into me, and sometimes it takes an awfully long time, but she gets me there.

I think you need to have more hope and I highly recommend getting professional support. Do you have a pain management specialist? If not, please ask your primary care doc to refer you. You can ask the specialist, or your primacy doc for a referral to someone who can counsel you regarding how to handle pain. I learned that there are ascending and descending pain signals in the body and that if you learn to ID the ascending pain signals and deal with them, the descending signals can be lessened and therefore you can handle the emotional pain much better. A therapist can help you with this.

Pain affects everything about you, and it can be overwhelming when trying to handle it alone. Please reach out and locate someone to talk to whom you can trust and learn from. There is reason to have hope, in fact lots of hope. In fact, there's reason to have joy even in suffering. But you have to look outside of yourself. You mention the Lord's timing in your post. He is the source of all hope, as I bet you know. I know for a fact, that He wants you to have hope and joy. Maybe there's someone at your church you can confide in?

I know you can find someone to help because you reached out here for help. Look to your church and your docs for someone to work through this with you.

In the meantime, there's a boatload of folks here to carry you for now, and I know they'll chime in with all kinds of encouragement.

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Aw, Chrissy...I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling this way! I felt this way after one of my pelvic surgeries, and it was just a hopeless feeling. Now that I can step back and look at it, though, I think it was a combination of meds and anesthesia fog, as well as the residual pain. It's going to get better, girl...so in the mean time, rest...take your meds when you need to (stay on top of your pain)...but sometimes, taking more meds than your used to can make you feel yucky. And I know after surgery, it's necessary to take more than normal. Everything is going to be alright...you just need time and prayer. The Good Lord has such a wonderful plan for your life, Chrissy, and someday soon, you'll look back and see how much stronger you are for what you've endured. Please get on here and vent, cry, laugh, holler, fuss, encourage, and whatever else will make you feel better. We're here for you. Don't worry about what tomorrow will bring...the Bible tells us that. Just take care of your pain today, and when tomorrow comes, we'll deal with that pain. You may need more surgery, and you may need to be on meds for a very long time, if not forever. But that's ok, too. There are amazing doctors who will treat you and make every day as painless as possible. Use your strife to encourage and inspire others. I tell you what, you've already been an inspiration to so many on these boards. Prayin' for you, gal...keep that pretty chin up!!

 
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Re: Feeling very sad & emotional, the burnig pain is really wearing on me! Help!!

Chrissy,
I know that it can look very hopeless when you are down in the depths of depression and pain. I am just starting to come out of the depression since starting on an antidepressant about 2 months ago. I am sure you know that I have been dealing with a multitude of health problems recently and I feel alone a lot of times as well.

You may have to really slow down and take a time out from school right now. You are only a couple of weeks post-op right now aren't you. Please do not do what I did after surgery and become too active and I prevented myself from healing properly. I know it would be very difficult to put your schooling on hold but you might need to this. I know that dealing with all the side effects of the meds can be very discouraging and sometimes you do become confused and wonder if your addiction is trying to get you take more than needed. However, as long as there is still some pain there after you have taken the meds you should be safe. The only time you put yourself in danger is if you get to the point of having no pain and take more, then you will experience the "high". I know the meds you are taking were not your drug of choice but as recovering addicts we have to be more careful than the average person.

I will be praying for you and lifting you up in prayer. Please try to find a counselor or psychiatrist because it sounds like you definitely need help at this time in your life. You may only need to take an anti-depressant for a month or two in order to get you over the hump and competely healed. I know the unknown is the scariest part right now. Try to take only one day at a time and some times only 1 minutes at a time. Go rent some funny comedy movies from the video store or library. I have found it good to escape by watching movies. Good luck

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Hi Chrissy,

I know exactly how you feel. I've had 7 c spine ops/procedures and a shoulder decompression and am currently in the same position as you. Struggling to get to work full time due to pain and discomfort which is noweven worse as stupidly i crashed my car!. I have to walk around the room in meetings as it hurts if i sit still too long and I'm currently re-evaluating if i can actually stay at work as I'm in such a poor physical state.

I'm 34 and want children but can't as i'm on serious meds. You do feel like your life is being put on hold and actually it's right to feel angry, upset and fed up some times. All that shows is that a) you're human and b) you are normal and rational.

Nobody is a saint and no-one can deal with things silently. pain wears you down and shifts your perspective so after 3 nights of no sleep and constant chewing pain in your c spine (for example) you're bound to be upset and crying cos I do.

What keeps me sane is the fact that - it could be worse - you could be immobile and totally without any life choices. Equal opportunities and disability legislation should mean you can follow your dreams and achieve what you want to - you just need to keep focusing on the positive things in your life and accept that some days will be great, some good and some not so good. I hold a very senior position in an organisation in the UK and have managed to reach for my dreams even though I've been very ill for the last 7 years. Some days I'm great = others I'm shocking but actually if you're honest, people are incredibly supportive as your professor has shown you.

I believe crying is cathartic - shopping is retail therapy - and new shoes always make me feel good. Choose something that you like doing and do it - even just for a few hours. call your girl friends and get them to pop round and share a girlie night in - just anything that's a simple pleasure in life.

You just need to focus on what is good and deal with each day as it comes. Don't get hung up on what hasn't happened - focus on the here and now. If I lived anywhere near you I'd be on the doorstep with a gallon of wine and some decent chocolate. I really hope you feel better soon but if you want to talk just get in touch and I'll happily support you if you need it.
With the warmest of wishes, ellie

 
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Hello everyone,

Thanks everybody ffor posting such kind words. I need to here that stuff from the people who really inderstand what I am going through being in chronic pain.

Yesterday I actually put on my ski jacket and went to walk outside because it was partly sunny and my street was clear of snow and ice. My street goes on a circle with a small lake in the center and condos on lakside of street and the non lake side of the street. It is about 1/2 mile and I was pretty exahusted after but I just layed down and watched some TV untill I dosed.

I am currently on Cymbalta for nerve pain and depression. I was put on that back when I was still dealing with my arm problems just a few months before my last arm surgery. 60mg's. I also take 10 / 325 percocet.

Cymbalta is a very expensive drug so when WC ended and I was left ot pay for it on my own so I now actually get it from the manufacturer through a program they have to help people who hav either no prescription coverage or someine like me who only has a discount prescrtion card.

You guys I am already doing as little as possible. I dont drive, I do the littlest amount of house work like dishes and small loads of laundry. My Mom is paying someone to drive me and help me clean and do my errands. She is also my friend but time and gas are worth a lot thses days and her husban was layed off a few months ago and she goes to school with me.

I am not sure if I feel hopless but I am just tired. I dont see an end anytime soon to these issues so I will need to work on the acceptance part of it all.

Back in Sept a friend of mine gave me a beautiful orchid flow for my sobriety birthday and it flowered for almost 5 months. Since then I hae now recieved one more by the same friend for Christmas and I have also purchased some myself. So it has becoome a new thing that I can do and enjoy that does not require any heavy liftting or anything. Just TLC. When my Mom was here I purchased a few more and I now have then all over my kitchen and living room and they are beautiful to look at and nurture.

I have been to counceling with a really good therapist but my Insurance will not cover that anymore and I can not afford it. I revieved a settlement from workers comp and I have been using it to live on and pay all the bills and the medications for the neck plus my regular medication are just killing me. Not to mention my portion of the house payment. My Mom and dad are the owners but it was agreed that I was to pay part.

I have also never been married and I have no children and I cant have any anyway. I do not have a BF so it is just me and my cats so I am here to deal with it all mostly with the just what litle help I recieve from my friends and then my Mom is going to try and come and visit again in the begining of next week weather permitting.

Brian I do still have pain when taking the meds. I really honestly dislike taking the pain meds. I even was put on methadone once during my arm issues. I hated that drug and I asked to be decreased off after 2 months and that is when I got off everything as my WC case came to an end. Even though I took my medication as prescribed my body still paid the price and had to detox off everything. It was very slow process and very grueling. At least I was lucky in that my head was not telling me to take more to feel better, it was saying I hat that stuff God please help me get to the other side so I can get back to normal.

Then I was off everything and had come so very far with my arm. If you only knew how far. I did not see an end in sight to that ordeal and i was excited to have worked with the doctors that helped me get to be almost completly PAIN FREE.....only to be in an accident a month later!.
I tried for two weeks after the accident to not need to take the dang narcotics but the pain got to be that bad that they were necessary.

Took a lot of working through some stuff for me and my sponsor to wear I gave myself permission to take them as directed again. Cheezez my sponsor was inthe ER with me after the accident and practiccally had to hit me over the head to get me to allow the docs to give me narcotic pain meds.

So today I have my short day at school and I will be taking it easy untill then. Tomorrow I see if I feel well enouhg to make the friday noon meeting. I miss the people unknow!

Only if I feel up to it.

Talk to you guys later and maybe I can make it through the day with out crying.
Today is Sammy's surgery so I will be keeping her close to my heart.

Chrissy

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My suffering pales in comparison to what you are going through Chrissy. I get so down because of my limitations and constant pain, and then I read a post like this one and it makes me feel ashamed.

I am awestruck at the fortitude and strength you are showing Chrissy. I bet you don't even see it. What you are doing to cope sets a very good example for me to (try to) follow.

I feel really fortunate to have read your story and to have had a chance to "chat" with you. I wish you could see through my eyes what a wonderful person I see in your posts.

One more thing - I think the world of your sponsor. I am so glad you have her at your side.

I hope today brings you joy.

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Re: Feeling very sad & emotional, the burnig pain is really wearing on me! Help!!

steve is very right here chrissy,you have alot more strength than you think you do.you have already been thru alot and can do it again(you just now have the stronger coping ability for getting thru the stuff before),believe me.you will get thru this.if i can survive thru the last 9 years of non stop medical nightmares with me and my son,you CAN do this.you just 'do' because you have to,and you know that.times like these are the little hurdles and tests that god throws in our way that make you much stronger and wiser in the end.and you also feel pretty darn good about yourself once you come out the other side.its just the 'being in the middle' of this stuff that really sucks.

i really am wondering just what in the heck took place during your surgery hon.your pain is just way out of proportion for what you had done and the time frame here.that level of burning you have described really just is not normal.i am pretty certain it IS a nerve related issue,but not knowing what things look like in there right now,well it could be many possible types of affectation that are causing your pain and symptoms.have you asked about the lido ointment hon?this really does help with burning pain,alot.i just think this could help you much more than any actual med could considering what is most likely generating the burning part of this.i do think obtaining an MRI at this point wouldn;t hurt just to see what is going on,but convincing your doc is a whole other story.this is just not a normal type symptoms for what you had done hon.this just doesn't "sound' like normal healing to me but some level of neuropathic pain/nerve damage.this just shouldn't be there(or this strong) at this point.

honestly chrissy,now is where you really need to start asking your surgeon some more in depth questions about why this is still there.something just isn't 'right" inthere andyou need to find out just what that is.an MRI really would be the very best way to see in there right now.maybe with some talking toyour surgeon you can convey just how nasty this is right now and he will just send you for the MRI.just keep telling him that something isn't right.i would bug the hell out of him at this point.maybe you can also ask him to rx you that medrol dosepack?this would really show,whether it actually works or not,whether this is some level of plain old nerve inflammation or something else.if it IS just inflammation,the medrol would help,in some cases,alot.what was the exact extent of the problem BEFORE he actually did the surgery?any cord contact at all or any heavy impingment going on in there?the thing is,if you are not actually 'doing' anything to really aggrevate this,then something else is firing it off in there,that is what you need to find out,the trigger of this pain.i do wish i could be of more help here hon.i really do feel badly for what you are dealing with after going thru what you already had to deal with.

i too think just talking to someone about all that is going on would be a good idea.since you cannot afford to do this right now,areyou still under the WC with a caseworker?if so,you may be able to get something set up thru that,or if you are no longer affiliated with the WC program,there ARE sliding fee types of therepists who you can see at a really minamal rate.we used to have to do this when i was working crisis intervention back when i still had a life.make a call to your local social services program.they would know of the right places to send you for some help here.

i wasn't quite clear as whether or not you were still on the cymbalta?if not,you really do need to get onto another form of ant D hon.you are in kind of a situational depression that can just come with the territory when we feel too overwhelmed by having to take on way too much crap.it sounds like you DO have some good thereputic distractions there at home and that does help alot.it gives you something to take your mind off things for awhile anyways.try and concentrate on the things that you DO have control over and the rest you place into gods hands sweetie.one day at a time hon.

i would seriously start bugging your surgeon here tho.you just deserve some answers as to why this is just way too much at this point.THAT you can control.the more things that you can govern and control the more power and control you will just naturally feel.right now,.that pain is winning and you need to start kicking its *** back.sometimes you just have to start getting a bit demanding in order to just get your needs met.beleive me,i had to start doing this with teams of docs who were taking care of my son and some were just blowing me off.when it came to me, i was not the type of person who would ever doubt or question any doc,espescially those specialists,but when it came to my son,that was a whole different story,ya know?it was just a really huge learning experience for me,but it only happened when my son was involved,not just for me.but now i do know what my rights are and i call docs on it when there are problems or if something isn't right for me.but it took me having to advocate for my son in order for me to really see that i am just as important as any other person and do deserve attention from any doc or surgeon when something isn't right.you deserve this type of treatment too chrissy.just advocate for yourself and demand some answers from the man who did this surgery on you.believe me,you WILL 'feel' a bit more in control over your situation.you are just sounding very depressed and defeated here when you DO have the ability to not be there right now.just take some control back by making another phone call or setting an appt up with this surgeon and start demanding some answers.something just isn't 'right' back there and you do need to find out just what that is.getting the lido ointment and a round of medrol would also really help.you DO have some options here hon,but sometimes we just cannot always see them when we are feeling too much that is out of our hands.

i really am pulling for you chrissy.i hope this will go away for you soon,but if it does not get ANY better within the next few days,i would be talking to your surgeon and start asking him some big questions.but you can call today and request the meds i mentioned.they would most likely give you some level of relief hon.take care chrissy and hang in there hon,things will get better eventually.sending you big but gentle hugs,Marcia
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Steve thanks so much !!!! I just read and posted in a post that did the same for so I get it. Thanks!!

Marcia, I am not on workers comp any more that case closed at the same time my accident happened.
As for my Pain...The burning pain that most bothers me the most at this time was never to be addressed with the surgery that I just had. He, the NS, al
ways told me that I would need a fusion or at another visit said he would use an aritficial disc relpacement but did not really like to do them on patients my age...I am 38.
If I did not have the hot buning dagger and it was hypathetically never their I feel I would be healing really well and not having the need for as much medication.
But your right when you say I should start bugging him about what the hell is really going on back there???? I have only had the one MRI and I would like to have a discogram or something to find out what the heck is going on with C 5-6 which he, the NS, said is causing the hat poker stuff. To be honest the thought of another surgery is very dreadful because I know how painful this one was. But the thing is WHY should I live like this when like you said there ARE options to fix the problem.
I do not see him again untill MARCH 7TH do you think that I should call and get in there sooner and start asking some questions or do you think it is worht it to just wait untill I am healed a bit more from this surgery and see where we are in that healing process. I mostly am just sore and do not have the pinching anymore. But that Hot dagger as far as I am GO!!!!

It is so easy to get it aggravated! I actually walked again this morning and then took a shower and then ice and heat and all that and I think it is a bit easier to just do that than to grocery shop. I am improvising with showering and my hair care. I just cant do the wash dry curl thing every day because the arms above my head hurts me and agrrevates the hot dagger.

I will call the pharmacy and ask them what the lido cream would cost for someone with out insurance to see if I can judge how much it my be with my discount prescription card. At this time I am prettly much going broke try to pay for thae prescriptions.
I have tried a medrol dose pack before and the side effects were really bad for me, but the surgical stuff is not really causing me the problems it is the stuff that has yet to be treated so I am not sure that would really help with that issue because we tried it a while back before surgery.

Right now I am just trying to do my best with what I got!! I do not know what else to do except move forward and try not to be so sad and stuck in the saddness.
I acctually fell a little better as far as the saddness goes. I really went for the walk more for the sadness stuf than for my neck.
Talking with all of you has always helped me in the past. If I gotta keep tellingit over and over and over so be it. I think it really does help to take the power out of it.
Anyhow I hope I think Sammy is either in pr op or in surgery now. I think it was her who said she was a 3 pm surgery. She is 3 hours ahead so I am thinking of her all day and hoping she does well and is given adequate pain control. If she goes home and has trouble she can always go to the ER for more help.
Thanks again.
I dont feel out of the saddness yet but I am working on it.
Marcia if you can read the questions I presented and get back with me about them I would appreciate that.
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I would suggest maybe upping the Cymbalta to 120mg since the therapeutic dose is 60mg - 120mg. Upping the dose may just make a big difference. And maybe temporarily upping the Percocet. You need to get some control over this pain. I know how grueling it can be I went for 18 months with burning and only using OTC meds. I went into my doc and said I can't withstand it anymore. I hope things get better.

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Hello everyone,

I got a letter in the mail today from my attorney. It was the docs report from my last visit which was on the 25th of January. My first post-op visit.

This was his report:
Christine is 17 days out from a left C3-4, C4-5 laminotomy and foraminotomy. Her preoperative shoulder and trapezius pain is completely gone. However, she still has sharp pain in the left suprascapular area. This is referred pain from the C5-6 disk. We did not operate at that level because in order to treat that I would have had to have fused that joint. Christine is in agreement to tough is out at this point. She is taking about 6-8 Percocet a day. I have refilled her prescrption, I have given her 60 tablets. I am also going to encourage her to take Robaxin. Christine has good strength on exam. Initally she complained of some left arm weakness, but that is better at this point as well.

I am pleased with her progres, and we will see her back in four weeks. Please not that last week we admitted her for a day for pain control
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This is what I am talking about the C 5-6 disk is giving me all the trouble. Today I did my walk and felt some arm weakness. This is new since I saw him last. He also said in that visit that he would not do a fusion he would use the artifical disk replacement. I would rather have that then a fusion.

Today I had to get up and leave the class room for about 15 minutes because the pain was burning me so much. I tried to go with out the tears but I did not make it. The letter set off my head and my mind was just spinning.

I just do not know how much I can take! I never really said I would tough it out, I said I really did not want to have a fusion but that was a few months back in September I think. At that time he never mentioned that an artificial disk was a possibility.
I am not sure when they were actually FDA approved in the USA but I know that from an article I read from Duke University from October 2007 that it said that they were recently approved.

I am just taken aback from the pain. When it is really severe I just can't handle it and sometimes there is not meds that I have at that point that can get it under control.

Brian I get my Cymbalta for free from the manufacturer and to be honest I did not know you could take a stronger dose. I guess if I went to my primary who is the one prescribing it and asked him to write a letter upping the dosage that maybe the Lilly company would consider allowing this to happen. I am just about to fill the paperwork and request that I have the next four months sent to me so I can try and see what happens because I can in no way afford to spend any more money than I have to.

You guys are right I am overwhelmed with everything but the only thing that is going to keep me from school is if the doctor tells me I can't go anymore. Somtimes it is really really hard but what the heck would I do with my self all day? I already stay home most all the time but at least I can study and not sit around doing nothing at all. I think my clss is a good distractor even as hard as it seems right now.

Today was my short day so not as bad but I was pretty dang uncomfortable!

I have already started to just come to realize I gotta work on surrender because I cant change one bit of ot except for my attitude and my reactions.
There is foot work I can do yes. I am like going through another greiving process I guess. Greving that I my life is not the way I had hoped it would be after getting off workers comp.
The workers comp cased did not even GET closed BEFORE the darn acccident.
It was like I never even got a chance.
So sad.
anyway I need some help coming up with a list of questions about that disk implant and when the right time is to have it and is there any other option.

Any ideas would be great! Do I wait till MArch 7th or call and try to be seen sooner?
I need to go eat dinner so check you all later.
Thank you all so much because this is all so hard to sort out when you are sad, and your depression has become elevated....

Chrissy

 
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Yes get back in before March 7th. Tell him let's go I don't want to wait any longer for the artificial disk surgery. Why wait? The only thing waiting is going to do is prolong your suffering. What about if this operation would stop the burning pain for good. If they could say with say >50% certainty that it would, then why would you not do it. I would do it instead of suffering. If you do not make a decision quite yet then at least get in and have him up your percocet. It might help take a little more of the edge off.

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Chrissy

The other posters had some very good advice. It isn't easy dealing with burning pain. I have chronic pain too so I know what you are going through. My prayers are with you Chrissy.

Sincerely Nadine

 
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Hi Chrissy, Glad I found you here, I lost you for a few days! I read all the posts here, and so sorry you are having such a difficult time. The posts here gave such excellent advice, and I hope you find some relief soon. Wanted to tell you my daughters operation today (oral cancer), turned out well (God heard my prayers!). And, yes, I prayed for Sammy today and am anxious to hear how she did.

Keep your chin up, Chrissy, and remember, we are all thinking about you and praying for your recovery. God bless you, gal!!

Judy

 
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