Re: Pain not worse, but getting worn down by it
10sox - I have recently been feeling really upset about the constancy of the pain, too. I also did not think my pain was worse, but I just couldn't take it anymore all day every day. I started on a long acting pain med and it is really helping because I now have times during the day when I have very little pain and I can concentrate on life. I would encourage you to be more involved in managing your pain well. I resisted pain meds, too. I realized, however, that I am not the type to get addicted to anything, and I had been taking short-acting pain meds (Vicodin) for 8 months and I never craved it or took more than I was supposed to. It sounds like you are doing the same (taking it responsibly). Is addiction what you are afraid of with the pain meds?
I have a psychologist that specializes in pain management. I think it has been helpful for me. I would encourage you to explore it, especially if your insurance covers it. Search around to find someone who is highly recommended. There are a lot of just average therapists out there. Maybe you can talk to your doctor about getting a recommendation.
I can really understand where you are coming from. I haven't had pain for nearly as long as you have, and I understand the nagging and wearing down of your psyche by the pain every day. I hope you can find some relief...